if you want somethin, don't ask for nothin
things just aren't well. i probably should share all the details of my trip but its hard. i don't feel like im home. home suddenly turned into amatitan. i was so in my element there, it was amazing. i can't get back into the swing of things, im lost. i look around and people don't smile here like they do in amatitan. the food here makes me sick, and im even craving rice and beans. i just have been overcome by a kind of homesick feeling. and to make things worse everyone has been pulling on me in each direction, im very overwhelmed and i barely have time to think anymore. everything is very weird. i wanna go home.