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This is a super long post, more like a rant about my crap like day, enjoy:
today at work I spoke to one of the higher ups because this certain person was..lets just say, unhappy with me on Saturday- I asked what I should work on, I asked what this person wanted to see different in me and in response I was called immature and when I asked in what way, in what aspect- this person said in the overall way I carry myself, in my interaction with the team members and with the shoppers- I was taken aback and asked for specific situations in which this person felt I displayed a lack of maturity and this person brought up some random blurry instance, called me gossipy and closed the convo before I could ask or say anything- Then continued to say that I should just think about my every action and say to myself "is this the way I want to carry myself"
No one has EVER called me immature-EVER. if anything they've said the polar opposite- I couldn't believe it, all I could do was cry- This person said they wouldn't hold it against me but it's obvious, and it's BEEN obvious that this person is not keen to me. I asked this person to let go of those thoughts and try to see me a new, but this person said that the perception that’s out there of me is this persons reality, it's real to this person-that is who I am, that's it because that what "I’ve showed"
I walked away, jumped back on my register and cried- I took two guest as best I could and had to be excused to go to the restroom. It was HORRIBLE.
Theeeen a lady gets mad in my line because the lady in front of her gives me 3 rolls of coins and I have to count them I call over the supervisor to help me count the coins cause, well- DANG! The lady who was upset begins to say rude comments so the supervisor walks away and leaves me alone to count the coins, deal with the lady and bag the groceries- So I count the coins and begin to ring the mean lady’s things and the supervisor walks by so I asked her to ATLEAST help me bag she comes over does it and when the mean lady leaves, comes and with anger says "don’t ever do that to me again, you knew I didn’t want to deal with that lady yet you still called me, I walks way for a reason"
Well, Far be it for me to ask for help and great that you have the opportunity to just walk away, I one the other hand DO NOT have the luxury and indeed needed help. The supervisor then told the shifty and the back up supervisor, I didn’t nothing wrong. The supervisor was been selfish and leaving me to the wolves while she walked away to escape the rude comments by this lady- So it was obvious the supervisor was upset with me and at the end of the night she approached me and said she didn’t appreciate what I did-
I can't do anything right in the place-So I cried again.
I don't know what to do, when I think I’m doing better under their standards I fall back 3 paces and there is ZERO grace or thought of the things I did do great- Like coming in early, staying late, coming back out after I counted out or getting a till when I was scheduled too-
They forget all of that and focus on a mess up, a single moment where circumstances didn’t go my way.
I am at a lost, I’m frustrated, So sad and flabbergasted.
This company is really great to work for I actually like it a lot but some of these people I work with are.. Confusing and hard to be around, or hard to please and hard to fit into their mold of who they want their team memebrs to be.
I just don't know what else to do to show these people that i'ma great employee- If only they'd TRY to see!
Edit:
But then I walked into the front office and saw that Alyx has a schedule back there- He starts next wednesday and that made my frown creep into a smile and my thoughts rush from sad things to YAY things.
today at work I spoke to one of the higher ups because this certain person was..lets just say, unhappy with me on Saturday- I asked what I should work on, I asked what this person wanted to see different in me and in response I was called immature and when I asked in what way, in what aspect- this person said in the overall way I carry myself, in my interaction with the team members and with the shoppers- I was taken aback and asked for specific situations in which this person felt I displayed a lack of maturity and this person brought up some random blurry instance, called me gossipy and closed the convo before I could ask or say anything- Then continued to say that I should just think about my every action and say to myself "is this the way I want to carry myself"
No one has EVER called me immature-EVER. if anything they've said the polar opposite- I couldn't believe it, all I could do was cry- This person said they wouldn't hold it against me but it's obvious, and it's BEEN obvious that this person is not keen to me. I asked this person to let go of those thoughts and try to see me a new, but this person said that the perception that’s out there of me is this persons reality, it's real to this person-that is who I am, that's it because that what "I’ve showed"
I walked away, jumped back on my register and cried- I took two guest as best I could and had to be excused to go to the restroom. It was HORRIBLE.
Theeeen a lady gets mad in my line because the lady in front of her gives me 3 rolls of coins and I have to count them I call over the supervisor to help me count the coins cause, well- DANG! The lady who was upset begins to say rude comments so the supervisor walks away and leaves me alone to count the coins, deal with the lady and bag the groceries- So I count the coins and begin to ring the mean lady’s things and the supervisor walks by so I asked her to ATLEAST help me bag she comes over does it and when the mean lady leaves, comes and with anger says "don’t ever do that to me again, you knew I didn’t want to deal with that lady yet you still called me, I walks way for a reason"
Well, Far be it for me to ask for help and great that you have the opportunity to just walk away, I one the other hand DO NOT have the luxury and indeed needed help. The supervisor then told the shifty and the back up supervisor, I didn’t nothing wrong. The supervisor was been selfish and leaving me to the wolves while she walked away to escape the rude comments by this lady- So it was obvious the supervisor was upset with me and at the end of the night she approached me and said she didn’t appreciate what I did-
I can't do anything right in the place-So I cried again.
I don't know what to do, when I think I’m doing better under their standards I fall back 3 paces and there is ZERO grace or thought of the things I did do great- Like coming in early, staying late, coming back out after I counted out or getting a till when I was scheduled too-
They forget all of that and focus on a mess up, a single moment where circumstances didn’t go my way.
I am at a lost, I’m frustrated, So sad and flabbergasted.
This company is really great to work for I actually like it a lot but some of these people I work with are.. Confusing and hard to be around, or hard to please and hard to fit into their mold of who they want their team memebrs to be.
I just don't know what else to do to show these people that i'ma great employee- If only they'd TRY to see!
Edit:
But then I walked into the front office and saw that Alyx has a schedule back there- He starts next wednesday and that made my frown creep into a smile and my thoughts rush from sad things to YAY things.