i dont know
i wish everything would just go away, leave without a trace. if all my worries and regrets would disappear. i would vanish into a state of comeplete and utter unawareness...
i really wish wednesday would come sooner, i miss eric and alan, and i think things will become more clear when i see both of them in person and can talk to them, even though i have made up my mind about the matter at hand..( alan knows what im talking about, and thats all that matters) (and for all of you random people who comment on my journal: STOP!! its none of your business, this has been hard enough for me, and i dont need you people nagging at me along the way)
wow, i havent updated my journals in a while, i mean, REALLY put my heart and soul into the entry.(not that im doing that here, but im putting some effort into it...)
crap i wrote:
After the last person,
he finally left.
He stood up from the table,
slowly.
and took a deep breath.
He found life in the desert,
he came dressed for the journey...
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"hear my tear"
sometimes it seems like i am invisible in this house.
They dont see my tears,
Just like the screams they did not hear.
Doesnt matter how much noise i make,
They still wont hear my tear.
Sometimes i want to vanish,
Like a magician,
Into another world, without any conditions.
Doesnt matter if i cry,
They still wont hear my tear...
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my favorite one!!!!!!!!! makes me happy whenever i read it:
Tumble weedin a sand storm.
Oh, i wish i were out of my dorm.
Laying in the wheat.
Feeling ever so neat,
Taking in the heat.
Tumble weed in a sand storm.
Oh, i wish a person of the norm'.
Dancing in clubs,
Recieving the hugs.
Loving everything, even the bugs.
Tumble weed in a sand storm.
Blows away and meets some corn.
The weed says, "Hello" looking dreadfully sad.
The corn replies here,
"Do you need me to lend you an ear?"
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my favorite qoutes:
"And so the light and dark were joined for awhile;jsut long enough for each of them to remember that their purpose was not to hate eachother nor disdain each the other, but to love eachother simply because they were not eachother." (Ly De Angeles)
"I am invisible, understand, simply because people refuse to see me." (Ralph Ellison; Invisible Man)
Silence...
"it is the bridge between that which is seen and unseen, that which is known and unknown, that which is, and that which is, as yet, unrealized." (Ly De Angeles)
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alrighty well. if you actually read every last word of this entry, then you are a really awesome person!
and alan i really need to talk to you still..
and...i feel horrible cuz i hurt lauren's feeling today, and i wish it would go away as well. i said sorry alot and explained stuff, she said she forgave me, but thats hard to believe, any hoo, i tried. cant tell me i didnt try.
peace and love
amie
i really wish wednesday would come sooner, i miss eric and alan, and i think things will become more clear when i see both of them in person and can talk to them, even though i have made up my mind about the matter at hand..( alan knows what im talking about, and thats all that matters) (and for all of you random people who comment on my journal: STOP!! its none of your business, this has been hard enough for me, and i dont need you people nagging at me along the way)
wow, i havent updated my journals in a while, i mean, REALLY put my heart and soul into the entry.(not that im doing that here, but im putting some effort into it...)
crap i wrote:
After the last person,
he finally left.
He stood up from the table,
slowly.
and took a deep breath.
He found life in the desert,
he came dressed for the journey...
-------------------------------------------
"hear my tear"
sometimes it seems like i am invisible in this house.
They dont see my tears,
Just like the screams they did not hear.
Doesnt matter how much noise i make,
They still wont hear my tear.
Sometimes i want to vanish,
Like a magician,
Into another world, without any conditions.
Doesnt matter if i cry,
They still wont hear my tear...
-------------------------------------------------
my favorite one!!!!!!!!! makes me happy whenever i read it:
Tumble weedin a sand storm.
Oh, i wish i were out of my dorm.
Laying in the wheat.
Feeling ever so neat,
Taking in the heat.
Tumble weed in a sand storm.
Oh, i wish a person of the norm'.
Dancing in clubs,
Recieving the hugs.
Loving everything, even the bugs.
Tumble weed in a sand storm.
Blows away and meets some corn.
The weed says, "Hello" looking dreadfully sad.
The corn replies here,
"Do you need me to lend you an ear?"
------------------------------------------
my favorite qoutes:
"And so the light and dark were joined for awhile;jsut long enough for each of them to remember that their purpose was not to hate eachother nor disdain each the other, but to love eachother simply because they were not eachother." (Ly De Angeles)
"I am invisible, understand, simply because people refuse to see me." (Ralph Ellison; Invisible Man)
Silence...
"it is the bridge between that which is seen and unseen, that which is known and unknown, that which is, and that which is, as yet, unrealized." (Ly De Angeles)
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alrighty well. if you actually read every last word of this entry, then you are a really awesome person!
and alan i really need to talk to you still..
and...i feel horrible cuz i hurt lauren's feeling today, and i wish it would go away as well. i said sorry alot and explained stuff, she said she forgave me, but thats hard to believe, any hoo, i tried. cant tell me i didnt try.
peace and love
amie