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I wish I had more exciting things to say about my life. But it's seriously boring. Which makes me think that I'm boring.
I am boring.
I've been kind of anti-social this semester. Mostly b/c I've had a lot of work that I've felt guilty about not doing (well, at least not putting off or staring blankly at, before actually rushing to get it done the day it's due), and I'm wicked poor. When I do go out, it's hardly wild crazy times, mostly just haning out w/ my peeps and making jokes about scott's mom or whatever. I have absolutely zero in the boy department. I haven't so much as kissed a dude in nearly two years. So pretty much all I do is running, school, work, and sleep. And stressing about jobs. Or procrastination. When I say I'm doing "work" or "school" chances are that's code for "thinking real hard about doing work while actually staring into blank space".
So the semester's been kind of a bummer. I'm too poor and too stressed to have much fun. The uncertainty that comes with impending graduation is fully stressing me out, and that's a big bummer. And then I'm bummed about being bummed.
So I'm hoping things will pick up next semester. I need to finish strong.
I also need to get a job. So far I've only found one that I could reasonably apply for. So I did. And I'd be THRILLED if i got it, but it's a gov't job and the way it's posted indicates that it's already earmarked for someone, so I think my chances are slim-to-none, but who knows. Maybe they'll end up hiring more people from that posting or something.
My dog is farting.
Wow, that's a whole lotta bitching right there. Why don't i just go listen to some Dashboard Confessional and cut myself.
I am boring.
I've been kind of anti-social this semester. Mostly b/c I've had a lot of work that I've felt guilty about not doing (well, at least not putting off or staring blankly at, before actually rushing to get it done the day it's due), and I'm wicked poor. When I do go out, it's hardly wild crazy times, mostly just haning out w/ my peeps and making jokes about scott's mom or whatever. I have absolutely zero in the boy department. I haven't so much as kissed a dude in nearly two years. So pretty much all I do is running, school, work, and sleep. And stressing about jobs. Or procrastination. When I say I'm doing "work" or "school" chances are that's code for "thinking real hard about doing work while actually staring into blank space".
So the semester's been kind of a bummer. I'm too poor and too stressed to have much fun. The uncertainty that comes with impending graduation is fully stressing me out, and that's a big bummer. And then I'm bummed about being bummed.
So I'm hoping things will pick up next semester. I need to finish strong.
I also need to get a job. So far I've only found one that I could reasonably apply for. So I did. And I'd be THRILLED if i got it, but it's a gov't job and the way it's posted indicates that it's already earmarked for someone, so I think my chances are slim-to-none, but who knows. Maybe they'll end up hiring more people from that posting or something.
My dog is farting.
Wow, that's a whole lotta bitching right there. Why don't i just go listen to some Dashboard Confessional and cut myself.