Phone calls from the police station at 4 in the morning are never good.
Well lastnight was just as promising as I expected it to be. Meaning-Anymore I'm expecting nothing but bad things every day and well it lived up to my beliefs. It's never going to end around here, and as far as I can see my father and I are the only ones that are going to break this terrible unending cycle of awful happenings.
Today is also bad for a rather minor reason. All my homework is locked in the school because after MCUSA they didn't let us in the school. This means that I cannot go to school tomorrow because I am doing so bad it will be in my grades best interests not to go at all and do all of the work when school is out tomorrow evening. My mother and sister are sitting in Sheakleyville, but they will not attempt to go to the school and get it for me. As my father said when he called to tell candace to get it, after I had tried, "Her mother won't let her go." Mom you are not even worthy of being called mom. You're never supporting of my achievments, beliefs,or goals. I would rather be back up here at this moment, even though Conneaut-Lake has extremely bad acedemics. At least my father is caring of my issues and problems, and I'm not afraid to let him know how I truely feel. Doesn't mean he likes how I feel, but at least he allows for our own time to discuss the issues and consider my feelings.
My other disappointing, also minor, moment of the day was church. For my brother's and father's beliefs I went with them church. Why? you ask? Well the reason can be simply stated. I am willing to give up my precious time to support the ones I love, weather I like it or not. You will find no one else in my family is the way, well....is caring enough to be this way. Church was disappointeing because I used to find comfort of my problems there. I have no realized it is patheic that we "pray to thin air" for any selfish reason at all, and expect it to be fixed. Then, when the problem is fixed it is a "miracle" and not a coincidence. The bible is serously nothing but a book of words, that we aren't even exactly sure who wrote, condeming society of their ways. All it does is create a fear that no one wants to test. For instance in the book of mark I was reading that if a man even looks at a woman, in a lustful way, he should cut out his right eye so his body does not go to hell. If a man commits adultry, like touching a woman, he better cut his arm of or else his body would go straight to hell. My dad being realistic said," Well we would all have no body parts left." I rest my case.
Fergy- I hope you continue blabbing your mouth and telling the world about Dad and Sherry's PERSONAL AT HOME problems. You and Candace are perfect for eachother. May your own divorce be magical someday! :)
The context is this next paragraph would be very helpful to the moron mentioned above. Those who have mastered the art of lying, and have made mistakes in the past, only get better at perfecting their lies. One who is dumb enough to believe these lies should have a hard time getting over them, because well.....they were dumb enough to believe them.
A liar:
-will say they were with someone they shouldn't be, and approach the innocent one with the thought" at least i told you the truthe"
- makes the above statement when they are actually guilty of something.
Let this be a lesson to the people who really don't want to lie to their supposed "loved ones" and make them rethink and analyze their situations a litte more carefully.
I feel like the normal things a 16 yearold female should worry about, I can't. I have taken on new lessons in life, that should have been learned much later. Not too many things are very important to me anymore and at this very moment I can feel my emotions inside, but on the outside they are not showing.
I would also like to leave this message for anyone that knows me or knows of me. Do not be quick to judge me. Many things are going on in my life, that you MAY think you know about but you probably don't. Even- if you think your best friends with me. I do talk about a lot of my problems, but there are also many i leave to myself. I'm sure many people do this, and I consider this thought when thinking of others. I would appreciate it if people think before they speak.
Today is also bad for a rather minor reason. All my homework is locked in the school because after MCUSA they didn't let us in the school. This means that I cannot go to school tomorrow because I am doing so bad it will be in my grades best interests not to go at all and do all of the work when school is out tomorrow evening. My mother and sister are sitting in Sheakleyville, but they will not attempt to go to the school and get it for me. As my father said when he called to tell candace to get it, after I had tried, "Her mother won't let her go." Mom you are not even worthy of being called mom. You're never supporting of my achievments, beliefs,or goals. I would rather be back up here at this moment, even though Conneaut-Lake has extremely bad acedemics. At least my father is caring of my issues and problems, and I'm not afraid to let him know how I truely feel. Doesn't mean he likes how I feel, but at least he allows for our own time to discuss the issues and consider my feelings.
My other disappointing, also minor, moment of the day was church. For my brother's and father's beliefs I went with them church. Why? you ask? Well the reason can be simply stated. I am willing to give up my precious time to support the ones I love, weather I like it or not. You will find no one else in my family is the way, well....is caring enough to be this way. Church was disappointeing because I used to find comfort of my problems there. I have no realized it is patheic that we "pray to thin air" for any selfish reason at all, and expect it to be fixed. Then, when the problem is fixed it is a "miracle" and not a coincidence. The bible is serously nothing but a book of words, that we aren't even exactly sure who wrote, condeming society of their ways. All it does is create a fear that no one wants to test. For instance in the book of mark I was reading that if a man even looks at a woman, in a lustful way, he should cut out his right eye so his body does not go to hell. If a man commits adultry, like touching a woman, he better cut his arm of or else his body would go straight to hell. My dad being realistic said," Well we would all have no body parts left." I rest my case.
Fergy- I hope you continue blabbing your mouth and telling the world about Dad and Sherry's PERSONAL AT HOME problems. You and Candace are perfect for eachother. May your own divorce be magical someday! :)
The context is this next paragraph would be very helpful to the moron mentioned above. Those who have mastered the art of lying, and have made mistakes in the past, only get better at perfecting their lies. One who is dumb enough to believe these lies should have a hard time getting over them, because well.....they were dumb enough to believe them.
A liar:
-will say they were with someone they shouldn't be, and approach the innocent one with the thought" at least i told you the truthe"
- makes the above statement when they are actually guilty of something.
Let this be a lesson to the people who really don't want to lie to their supposed "loved ones" and make them rethink and analyze their situations a litte more carefully.
I feel like the normal things a 16 yearold female should worry about, I can't. I have taken on new lessons in life, that should have been learned much later. Not too many things are very important to me anymore and at this very moment I can feel my emotions inside, but on the outside they are not showing.
I would also like to leave this message for anyone that knows me or knows of me. Do not be quick to judge me. Many things are going on in my life, that you MAY think you know about but you probably don't. Even- if you think your best friends with me. I do talk about a lot of my problems, but there are also many i leave to myself. I'm sure many people do this, and I consider this thought when thinking of others. I would appreciate it if people think before they speak.