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I started my new job yesterday, and I really think I'm going to like it. I am still working at the Texan too, I just needed another job, because it was a very expensive trip to California, and I don't have hardly any savings left. :D It was definately worth it though, I would go back in a heartbeat if I had the chance, you know?
Anyways, I think I'm going to like this job too, but I really don't want to go back today, because I'm just not doing too great. I came home last night, and just sat on my bed and cried. It didn't make for a pleasent time... I am still having a realy hard time dealing with the death of Mrs. Borman (Mother Hope) but I know that I shouldn't. She's in Heaven, there's no doubt at all, but I can't take not having her around to talk to. She knew pretty much everything about me, and she was ALWAYS there to offer me a hug when I was having a bad day, and now, well... she's not here. Life seems so unfair, but then I think about how amazing my life really is, and I feel selfish. I know that it's okay to be sad and miss her, but I know that it shouldn't affect me this much. Am I doing something wrong here? I really don't know what to do anymore... Somebody please help.
Anyways, I think I'm going to like this job too, but I really don't want to go back today, because I'm just not doing too great. I came home last night, and just sat on my bed and cried. It didn't make for a pleasent time... I am still having a realy hard time dealing with the death of Mrs. Borman (Mother Hope) but I know that I shouldn't. She's in Heaven, there's no doubt at all, but I can't take not having her around to talk to. She knew pretty much everything about me, and she was ALWAYS there to offer me a hug when I was having a bad day, and now, well... she's not here. Life seems so unfair, but then I think about how amazing my life really is, and I feel selfish. I know that it's okay to be sad and miss her, but I know that it shouldn't affect me this much. Am I doing something wrong here? I really don't know what to do anymore... Somebody please help.