You think you know, but you have no idea

[clarinetnazi]

I feel stupid and naive for telling you too much too soon. And for trusting you just because I like you. The truth is, I've been avoiding you because I don't want the others to pick up on the fact that I like you. But it's too soon to tell you that, so I'll just hope you read this and know.

And I know that the rest of you think that I like someone else just because I hang out with him. I know because as soon as I walked past you, you all stopped talking. But we just get along really well. Just because I'm a girl and he's a boy, doesn't mean we can't be friends.

I also feel stupid for thinking you guys liked me. Actually, with a few of you, I still can't tell whether you do or not. I know for sure one person doesn't because I've been deleted. But everyone else acts like they like me sometimes and then acts cold at other times.

And back to you. All I really want is for you to like me. And I want to ask you for your phone number so bad, but I'm afraid you'll think I'm weird or that I'll text you too much and you'll get annoyed with me/think I'm crazy/hate me. And you're constantly crushing my ego and turning me down. But I'm an optimistic person and my mind keeps telling me not to give up. Even though I probably should. But why give up on something I want?

Isn't it time I thought about me for once?

I'm just...confused tonight.

Love,
Katie