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Hmmm....i dont think i like my new english teacher, she gives to much work....and she scares me and i dont really have the motivation do anthing at the moment. i keep thinking that its less than 2 months till i come back.....i cant believe it. how weird is it gonna be? i mean its gonna be amazing but really sureal at the same time. but ahhhhhhhhh i cant wait. yea so i go to school everyday and it just goes by so quickly and nothing sinks in. we dont do anything in history or society and culture........dont do anything in maths...do to much in english, do to much theory in art, biology is a good balence though. Im so fucking lazy ahhhhhhhhhh.............i still feel like we are in the holidays. OMG i just realised that tomorrow is the last day of the week! no school friday! and i have money to spend. i have to buy monica a birthday present and i dont know what...i was gonna make a collage of all these photos i have of us, and do them up in photoshop and make it look really cool, but then i realised i suck at photoshop and it just looks really corny and stupid. i guess i can still just make a collage.........then i was gonna go get it printed at a photodeveloper on a huge piece of paper and get a nice frame, and make her some cd's and write her a letter and get some flowers or something, seeing as though it is her 18th.........i dont know. :( im so bad at buying presents. i want to get something she will really love....something that will like make her soo happy to get...ahh like getting a year book for me or a movie of u guys :) they where amazing presents....i wish i could do something like that. oh well... ill think of something. i got payed today which made up for the rediculous amount of work i have been doing lately.........i think its time i treated myeslf....hehe i can go shopping on friday and ill try really hard not to feel guilty. ahh but ir eally do feel bad, i should save the money and just buy stuff before i leave for my gloucester.............ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm what todo what to do. I got soo pumped for uni today. i cant wait.........but i still dont know what iwant to do. i mean, i wanted to digital media for soo long, but im realy not that good at it, and i know "u should do something u love who cares how good u are at it" but its like, i want to be successful in my field, i want to have influence and i want people to look up to me because im pritty good at waht i do. Like thinka bout all the millions of jobs that exist that u dont even know about, and u dont think "oh what classes at uni am i gonna need to do this or that" u really just end up places, not having any idea what ur doing. thats what my dad said, uni is just a place to learn hwo to live, it doesnt really, singly, determine where u will be after graduation (but it obvously helps) i mean, he didnt know or expect, or even want to end up selling power plants for a living. soo random. I would love to do art at uni, i dont nkow if it would be morally forfilling enough. deplomacy or international relations would be good, that is soemthing that would really be forfilling i think, but i dont think im confident enough inmyself, or loud and sure enough, i guess. and i think i wouldnt be able to deal with like all the beaurocracy of politics and such. *sigh* archiology would rule too, but u would have to learn like latin and all these ancient languages, which i dont think i would be to interested in. It would also rule to like design sets and stuff for movies, imagine being the person who designed the elves like villiage thing in lord of the rings, or like the palace in star wars. it would be sooo fun...............ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh what am i gonna do? i wnat to do everything, except i dont want tod o the english homework which is due tomrrow, and probably all the homework which is gonna be due untill the day i finish uni. grrrrrrrrrrrrr.................well i gtg do that homework, actually no i did most of it the other day ill just do it at recess or something.