That Awkward First Day
It's difficult to give judgment based on that first day.
Everything's so new and everything was so fast. Even if I have my good ole' cheerleaders behind me every step of the way, it's still something new that I'd have no choice but to face alone. It's scary, isn't it? You've been so comfortable and so familiar. Back then what I only lacked was the drive but I can pretty much do most of the things with my eyes closed. But when I saw that file earlier that had everything I was supposed to do, I honestly wanted to run. It's not that I'm cowering. It's just that it would be difficult again to learn everything from scratch after working so hard to actually get to what I already know this far.
I was never the most adventurous person on earth. This is something therefore that is not in my turf. But then again, will I just allow myself to drown into oblivion if I stayed behind again? I don't think so. Better to get rid of this phase fast, try to learn even faster, and try to get my life back.
Everything's so new and everything was so fast. Even if I have my good ole' cheerleaders behind me every step of the way, it's still something new that I'd have no choice but to face alone. It's scary, isn't it? You've been so comfortable and so familiar. Back then what I only lacked was the drive but I can pretty much do most of the things with my eyes closed. But when I saw that file earlier that had everything I was supposed to do, I honestly wanted to run. It's not that I'm cowering. It's just that it would be difficult again to learn everything from scratch after working so hard to actually get to what I already know this far.
I was never the most adventurous person on earth. This is something therefore that is not in my turf. But then again, will I just allow myself to drown into oblivion if I stayed behind again? I don't think so. Better to get rid of this phase fast, try to learn even faster, and try to get my life back.