If there's one thing I've learned about life its three words: it goes on- Robert Frost

[clarbear417]

So like the title says.. the world keeps turning! Semester One of college is over in a week. Thank Jesus! Hopefully I won't fail any classes! (That's the first time in my life I've had to worry about that, it makes me feel kinda remedial!) Finally, talked to Will. That boy causes me SO much grief. Love is Pain..no underestimate there. He should be home by the time I get there & we'll have like 26 days to fraternize before he's shipped off to Japan. GREAT! I question this LDR every day of my life, mostly when he pisses me off, but honestly with any relationship with a man I will become pissed off. there's no doubt about that.. I just feel like he needs to keep it to a minimum bc I am sacraficing all the tantalizing college boys to be with him. lol.. they really arent that great, but it could be a fun few moments. I want more than that & I love Will, which is why I am with him. It just seems to improbable and I dont like these odds! ANYWAYS! I'm not mad at him anymore, but he is supposedly trying to surprise me but I'm way too smart for him. I know what he's doing and Dani says I need to play the dumb girlfriend for once & let him surprise me but I am way too much of a femenist for that. I won't play dumb for anyone, especially not to inflate a man's ego! He cant get anything by me and he should know that so if he ever thinks about cheating or lying he will remember when he tried to lie to me to do something nice and how i saw right through it. Yea, I'm crazy. But I wasn't born this way. I was made this way by countless assholes..& Will isnt paying for their mistakes he just has me- the product of their mistakes! Happy Holidays!! I'm so excited to ditch this town.. home sweet home here i come!

peace. love. happiness.
claressa