You wait for something to happen. And then it does. A lot...
*Phew*
I don't even know where to start! Well...
BSB
Hardly anyone was there when we turned up but my friend Jo said she'd pop down. And she did. She arrived and so did ADAM and 3 of his mates including simon whose a wickedy nice bloke.
My jaw nearly hit the floor. I wasn't expecting it and as a result i got pretty nervous because 2 of the songs are about him AND HE KNOWS IT. But despite this it went really really well. I just felt completely into the music and afterwards he said I was "awesome" and i giggled like the little girl i am.
On the way back i got pretty down though coz i realised how much i still really really like him, and how comfortable i feel around him. He rocks.
Barry Island
Still on a musical theme I've just written a song called "Barry Island". Why? WHY? WHY? I hear you ask....
Well I just spent possibly one of the best days of my life there. Strange I know. I went with Jo, Adam and Simon and it was brilliant. We took a picnic, swimming things, a total film quiz, a deck of Lord of The Rings Top Trump cards, a guitar, 2 harmonicas, a tamborine, four cameras, a video camera and a big blanket.
(Incidentally the song involves all of the instruments except the second harmonica, because, well, who needs two harmonicas in one song?)
They're just three really lovely, funny people. I felt proud to be their friend and lucky to spend a day with genuinely great company. We swam, sang, climbed rocks and had chips! Oh and we saw a ferret on a lead! (Also I saw a bit of a film called "The most vertical Primate" on sky earlier...it was about a monkey who does ice hockey and then moves into skateboarding and its one of the funniest things i've seen! Ever. A monkey doing jumps on a skateboard...what more do you need?)
The ridiculous personal life of Moi.
Yeah so um messiness ensued with Adam. But only in a good way. I think. Having spent all day being good and resisting his cheeky charm, even when playing in the sea with him, i might add, we sort of ended up holding each other and had a kiss on the beach right before we went home, when it was all quiet and calm and seven o'clockish. No snogging though, which is good since sober kissing with exes is infinitely better than drunken snogging. It was good and lovely and after that he kept being affectionate and tactile and i was very happy indeedy. Then Jo and I went back to her house for a cup of tea so Adam could tidy his place for purposes of Withnail and I, Evil Dead 2, chinese food and beer (*Yum!*).
During this half an hour my phone rang. It was the man from the open mic at Callahagn's wanting to know if i was up for having our "date" today. *Eek* I thought. Eekles indeed. What was going on with me and Adam eh? What a pickle. But then i thought, actually it doesn't matter because even if nothing more comes of Adam and I... I'm clearly still not over him. So I told open-mic-man that i had no money (FACT!) and perhaps I could just see him next monday instead? I'm so glad i made this decision because I ended up staying over at Adam's and how bad would it have been if i'd left his house to go and see this other person? 7 indeed.
We watched films and stuff and it was all good. Then Jo and Simon left and Adam and I had a row. But this turned out to be a good thing since it meant I got a lot of stuff off my chest and things this morning things were probably the best they've ever been. It doesn't really mean we're *together* because he's leaving on wednesday for two weeks to go and record with his band and after that i'll only be in cardiff for one more week. But I feel much better about it.
Ah, and to quote Jo: *We'll always have Barry Island*