May 22, 2005 23:50
I like people when they're not alive.
Wondershowzen is an awesome show.
Work today was good... But it left me feeling all shitty-like. Not good.
I do not want to do my homework. I have to work hard this semester. Ugh, I'm already going to summer school already. ASS.
Sunday nights suck. I feel such a huge void in the pit of my stomach. I can't fill it with anything. No matter how much I delude myself and keep my mind busy, the hunger is still there. The sad part is that I conditioned myself to treat this hunger as literal hunger.
This year has just passed me by. It's left me in the middle of the road. I feel like I've been sleeping the entire year and I'm just coming out of it. This time it's worse than last year and freshman year. I've been in a death sleep. I've been the walking dead. I wanna know, am I the first or the last one who's abandoned me?
Made some crazy flan for school tomorrow. I'm also gonna make some rice or something. Lovely.
I have to get connections.