and now...I wait and see
went to the Doc today. Got some drugs. Hope they calm my shit down. I took my first dose today. I need to adjust to it and keep taking it, the directions say. Takes a few weeks for it to "work". Funny how patients are about as well-informed as their doctors are in when do their research. I basically told him what he already knew I was going to say, if that makes any sense. I emphasized that in addition to trying something daily, i'd like something to take when i have to speak in front of people, deal with crowds, or take tests that I don't feel comfortable with. Yeah, I pretty much said that I'd like some pills to help calm down so I can take tests. Pretty silly, huh? He signed some slips and away he went. It seemed way to effortless. I feel like my own little science experiment.