I think I'm drowning, asphyxiated.
I am not desperate. Not in the sense you think I am.
Do you know why I'm longing for a relationship? No? I'll tell you why. I'm longing for a relationship because half of my family has decided it is easier for them to pretend I don't exist, and the other half lives in England. I'm longing for a relationship because I haven't seen my mother 18 months. I am longing for a relationship because as much as I respect my homestay parent, she is not my mother. I am longing for a relationship because my best friend is a guy- and I can't talk to him about girl stuff. I am longing for a relationship because my other best friend, who happens to be a girl and I can therefore talk to about girl stuff, is in India. I am longing for a relationship because everyone thinks I am strong and infallible and therefore I do not think it fitting to look for comfort from them. I am longing for a relationship because I need the physical contact; the intimacy of it. I am longing for a relationship because I need someone to tell me I am good enough- I haven't felt that way since I came here. I am longing for a relationship because the one man a girl should always have a relationship with has decided to leave me waiting on the side of the road for eternity. I am longing for a relationship because I want someone to hug me and kiss me and tell me I"m pretty. I am longing for a relationship because the last 9 months of my life have been like a constant roller coaster ride and I need someone that can catch me because I am utterly disorientated.
That is why I want a relationship. Not because I'm desperate to get laid. Fuck you, Alex, you inconsiderate bastard.
Do you know why I'm longing for a relationship? No? I'll tell you why. I'm longing for a relationship because half of my family has decided it is easier for them to pretend I don't exist, and the other half lives in England. I'm longing for a relationship because I haven't seen my mother 18 months. I am longing for a relationship because as much as I respect my homestay parent, she is not my mother. I am longing for a relationship because my best friend is a guy- and I can't talk to him about girl stuff. I am longing for a relationship because my other best friend, who happens to be a girl and I can therefore talk to about girl stuff, is in India. I am longing for a relationship because everyone thinks I am strong and infallible and therefore I do not think it fitting to look for comfort from them. I am longing for a relationship because I need the physical contact; the intimacy of it. I am longing for a relationship because I need someone to tell me I am good enough- I haven't felt that way since I came here. I am longing for a relationship because the one man a girl should always have a relationship with has decided to leave me waiting on the side of the road for eternity. I am longing for a relationship because I want someone to hug me and kiss me and tell me I"m pretty. I am longing for a relationship because the last 9 months of my life have been like a constant roller coaster ride and I need someone that can catch me because I am utterly disorientated.
That is why I want a relationship. Not because I'm desperate to get laid. Fuck you, Alex, you inconsiderate bastard.