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[clairvoyantears]

I hate feeling powerless and completely out of control. I wish there was something I could do to fix all this shit. He doesn't deserve this all, especially not now. Everything is falling apart, and I'm helpless with no way to keep it all together. There is nothing I can really do, but because of his fucking pride and shit he doesn't want my help, what I can give. I want him to be happy. I don't want him to have to worry about all this. The car alone we could deal with. There was a solution, and he was happy about it. And his car breaking was no one's fault. But there's no way I can look at Bill and David the same. I still was trying to hold onto the thought that they are nice people, that they do care a little bit. But obviously they don't. I feel it's safe to say that they are ruining my boyfriend's life. They've become so fucking stingy and selfish. Working Sunday makes a huge difference to Mike, but it doesn't really matter that much to them. It won't change their life if he keeps working those few fucking hours. They won't change their lives, they'll still take trips and eat whatever the fuck they want. But for Mike it's the difference between having a car that works and walking or being stuck somewhere with a car that won't start; going to school or working in kitchens as a dishwasher for years; eating what he needs for his workout meal plan or not being able to work out how he wants because he can't afford the nutrients and food he needs. And to not even give him, and everyone, a month's notice before closing. They won't pay everyone during that time because they're too selfish, so they can't possibly expect to keep everyone. People rely on that money. But they don't seem to care.
So he's fucked up. He made mistakes. He's not perfect and no one's pretending he is. But he does not deserve all this shit at once. And there's nothing I can do.