This could all end in tragedy

[clairvoyantears]

For the first time in a very long while, I felt motivated today. I wanted to get shit done and accomplish something. Of course, the one day I am willing to do shit, I have so much homework. So I wasted all my motivation on doing homework. Funny how I now view that as a waste. But really, what good does spending energy and time on a little assignment do? At this stage, not much. So I spent all day doing schoolwork when I had wanted to clean my room because the disaster it has become is so fucking overwhelming and frightening. I wanted to go out. I wanted to try and organize anything hoping it would organize my life. Obviously that was too much to ask. And because of daylight savings, I lost an hour. Losing an hour on a productive day is even more annoying than losing an hour in general. So now I still have shit to do, but my energy and focus is waning.
Things are looking up-the end of one hell is coming, and i can see a new beginning. Is this going to last, or is it just the result of a good few days with people that I love?
I'm waiting for it all to come crashing down. because i know it will. it always does. but can it please last a little longer?