the dull side of the blade.
i am feeling bitter.
bitter towards this town and its citizens.
no one person or peoples in particular, just as an aspiring artist of sorts, there is nothing. there is a small art community here, but it is all singers, musicians, painters, and the like. and these things are very important in an art community, don't get me wrong.
it just seems like no matter how hard i try to get involved, or get people involved it falls to dust.
my ideas and dreams are stopped before they're even started. i can;t find any one or anything who can help me, direct me. i may just be needing to break away from what i know, and just DO it. but being more discouraged by a rejecting art community is very unnerving.
i want what i can do to matter. to be important.
i want to MAKE. i want to CREATE.
but suzy homemaker just isn't cutting it. mysewing machine has a thin film of dust. my knitting things haven't been touched in over a year. my mind for jewelry making is wearing thin.
and it is discouraging.
i need to be active in doing what i want to do, and it seems i have got myself into a rut of sorts. i need inspiration, and this city and mystate of mind has no room for inspiration.
seeing the people i saw tonight, having the discussions i've had, makes me relaize i'm not the only one....
worlds being put into perspective, not physical worlds, but the worlds in which we all think revolve around us.
i am in need.
just in need.
bitter towards this town and its citizens.
no one person or peoples in particular, just as an aspiring artist of sorts, there is nothing. there is a small art community here, but it is all singers, musicians, painters, and the like. and these things are very important in an art community, don't get me wrong.
it just seems like no matter how hard i try to get involved, or get people involved it falls to dust.
my ideas and dreams are stopped before they're even started. i can;t find any one or anything who can help me, direct me. i may just be needing to break away from what i know, and just DO it. but being more discouraged by a rejecting art community is very unnerving.
i want what i can do to matter. to be important.
i want to MAKE. i want to CREATE.
but suzy homemaker just isn't cutting it. mysewing machine has a thin film of dust. my knitting things haven't been touched in over a year. my mind for jewelry making is wearing thin.
and it is discouraging.
i need to be active in doing what i want to do, and it seems i have got myself into a rut of sorts. i need inspiration, and this city and mystate of mind has no room for inspiration.
seeing the people i saw tonight, having the discussions i've had, makes me relaize i'm not the only one....
worlds being put into perspective, not physical worlds, but the worlds in which we all think revolve around us.
i am in need.
just in need.