I cant believe he isn't here. Did I do the right thing? Was he the one for me? I would do anything to see him just one more time. I miss him so much. I am still not able to sit here alone without crying. I can't do this and I don't know what to do. :( I wish someone was here to hold me and tell me it will be okay.

I just found a close family friend's, who is like my grandma, cancer came back. it has spread to the bone and they dont think they can do anything about it and its just a matter of time...i don't know what to think. what should i do? i wish i had my best friend back i could use her now.

I just my got my 1st tattoo.its of a pegasus and waves. i hope Erin will come take pictures soon so i can post some.

How am I suppose to help you and understand whats going on in your life if you don't talk to me?
I thought we were suppose to tell each other everything. I tell you everything, I wish you would do the same.
I hope this has nothing to do with me and our relationship.
Please please please talk to me and let me know what is going on.

I hate how your never here when i need you the most. I hate how something always comes up to stop you from being here. I hate how i cant bring myself to talk you about it because i love you so.

I cut my hair short today. I am in love with it. Tomorrow i am going to go back to my natural color. i cant wait.

I am off to my grandparents to see my cousin Katie and her new baby, for Easter, and for my grandpa's birthday. I hope everyone has a great weekend and Easter.

why does love hurt so much?

I'm sad and lonely and miss my baby. I wish someone would talk to me. I hate being home alone.

I have to be up at 430 and i cant sleep bc im too nervous and i feel like in going to puke. i really dont wanna fail this test and thats all i cant think about. fucking shoot me. i guess im going to be drinking lots of coffee tomorrow. maybe ill have to call in sick to work. im going to go try yet again to go to sleep. love you all. wish me luck.