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so I'm really gonna miss these summers home from college
not that they're that awesome or anything
just they mean you don't REALLY have to do anything
you just get a shit job and do whatever
I still don't know what I wanna do with my life
I think I would really like to be the merch person for a band.. designing their shirts, album covers, flyers, whatnot and whatever else comes up along the way. I'm still in that mode where I'm not caring about the money.. I haven't bought into the capitalist lifestyle yet.. I'm holding strong, yet, I'm still in college and really not required to care for myself.
I don't wanna buy into all that shit.. but I feel like when I get older I might. Hopefully not, and hopefully I can make enough money to sustain myself doing something I agree with on a personal level... you know, something that doesn't go against my crazy (and I say crazy because that's what all the people that think I should be out there trying to make bank with whatever bullshit liberal arts degree I get would say) beliefs. I'm majoring in Media Production and Broadcasting but I hate the fucking mainstream media, and I really would like to do graphic design shit but I hate advertising, so it really comes down to.. I wanna get a degree in something I and yes, if I could italicize that I, I would, but I wanna get a degree in something I like and do something I can agree with on a personal level (and I've read about these "well-meaning college kids" that have all these ideas but when they get into the "real world" they lose them... but I don't wanna be like that, I felt like I've been this whatever strong ideas in my own direction since I've been able to be cognizant, and I don't wanna compromise who I am for some bullshit job making me enough money to go buy more bullshit that I don't need.. excuse the rant). My mom thinks I'm shortsighted for whatever I think I want to do, organic farming being one example, but I think I just see from my college kid 21-year-old perspective that the world (and really I mean the US) is going downhill and these goddamn gas prices that everyone is crying about (we all knew this was gonna happen, I mean, us smart kids. Peak oil.. it's a reality.. it's a goddamn fossil fuel, it's gonna run out, or at least the output of it is gonna drastically decrease. And... This might make this parenthetical dealio long.. but.. the whole fucking US has been pretty much laid out since the advent of the automobile, since we're such a young country, meaning that interstates and long distances connect pretty much everything near us... If you aren't living in a big city, chances are you have to drive to the grocery store, pharmacy, work, etc etc etc... meaning you have to use goddamn fossil fuel every day, regardless of how much it costs. It definitely is getting a little annoying to hear everyone complaining about gas prices every day... yeah it's about four bucks a gallon, but we have had the prices artificially low for so long that it seems a lot rougher now. It's not because of this conflict in the middle east that we caused because of George W Bush's personal vendetta against Sadaam, it's because fucking petroleum is a limited resource, like everything else, and it's getting used up, mostly thanks to us. The US as a whole - obviously not a lot of people - has had the highest rate of disposable income for a while, a large part due to the fact that we have such low ass gas prices. Now that they are "so high" but still not as high as most other countries.. we are just freaking out. Who woulda thunk it? I would have. In econ in high school - hell yes mrs. winders - we talked about stagflation, which is usually caused by high energy costs... ^cost of fuel = ^prices = blah blah blah I forget the whole scenario, maybe I could remember if I'd had like 6 less beers, but alas, I don't know right now. It causes a shift in the supply curve which means an increase in prices and an increase in price and leads to increase in unemployment and all this other bullshit. It's happening, it's gonna keep happening, deal with it. We shoulda seen this coming. I did. Maybe only since freshman year at UNC, but I saw it. I watched a documentary about peak oil and then I called my family telling them they should move to a city so they wouldn't have to drive places and their lives wouldn't be ruined, but of course they thought I was fully of shit. They think I have no foresight, but I think I might have too much. I can't see the potential outcome of anything I do, namely attaining a college degree, because I know shit these days is changing so fast. Shit gets outdated so quickly and I mean.. if shit gets real bad, I think there could be a future in a lot of the things my parents think seem completely dumb now, like local organic farming shit. I mean.. ya'll are gonna see. 10 years, I say, and shit's gonna be so crazy. Dammmmn. Enough rambling.)
Enough.
Too much, probably.
Goodnight. I know nobody deals with LJ anymore, so whatevs.
Much llove (like llama love)
-Claire Bustine Stromberg
not that they're that awesome or anything
just they mean you don't REALLY have to do anything
you just get a shit job and do whatever
I still don't know what I wanna do with my life
I think I would really like to be the merch person for a band.. designing their shirts, album covers, flyers, whatnot and whatever else comes up along the way. I'm still in that mode where I'm not caring about the money.. I haven't bought into the capitalist lifestyle yet.. I'm holding strong, yet, I'm still in college and really not required to care for myself.
I don't wanna buy into all that shit.. but I feel like when I get older I might. Hopefully not, and hopefully I can make enough money to sustain myself doing something I agree with on a personal level... you know, something that doesn't go against my crazy (and I say crazy because that's what all the people that think I should be out there trying to make bank with whatever bullshit liberal arts degree I get would say) beliefs. I'm majoring in Media Production and Broadcasting but I hate the fucking mainstream media, and I really would like to do graphic design shit but I hate advertising, so it really comes down to.. I wanna get a degree in something I and yes, if I could italicize that I, I would, but I wanna get a degree in something I like and do something I can agree with on a personal level (and I've read about these "well-meaning college kids" that have all these ideas but when they get into the "real world" they lose them... but I don't wanna be like that, I felt like I've been this whatever strong ideas in my own direction since I've been able to be cognizant, and I don't wanna compromise who I am for some bullshit job making me enough money to go buy more bullshit that I don't need.. excuse the rant). My mom thinks I'm shortsighted for whatever I think I want to do, organic farming being one example, but I think I just see from my college kid 21-year-old perspective that the world (and really I mean the US) is going downhill and these goddamn gas prices that everyone is crying about (we all knew this was gonna happen, I mean, us smart kids. Peak oil.. it's a reality.. it's a goddamn fossil fuel, it's gonna run out, or at least the output of it is gonna drastically decrease. And... This might make this parenthetical dealio long.. but.. the whole fucking US has been pretty much laid out since the advent of the automobile, since we're such a young country, meaning that interstates and long distances connect pretty much everything near us... If you aren't living in a big city, chances are you have to drive to the grocery store, pharmacy, work, etc etc etc... meaning you have to use goddamn fossil fuel every day, regardless of how much it costs. It definitely is getting a little annoying to hear everyone complaining about gas prices every day... yeah it's about four bucks a gallon, but we have had the prices artificially low for so long that it seems a lot rougher now. It's not because of this conflict in the middle east that we caused because of George W Bush's personal vendetta against Sadaam, it's because fucking petroleum is a limited resource, like everything else, and it's getting used up, mostly thanks to us. The US as a whole - obviously not a lot of people - has had the highest rate of disposable income for a while, a large part due to the fact that we have such low ass gas prices. Now that they are "so high" but still not as high as most other countries.. we are just freaking out. Who woulda thunk it? I would have. In econ in high school - hell yes mrs. winders - we talked about stagflation, which is usually caused by high energy costs... ^cost of fuel = ^prices = blah blah blah I forget the whole scenario, maybe I could remember if I'd had like 6 less beers, but alas, I don't know right now. It causes a shift in the supply curve which means an increase in prices and an increase in price and leads to increase in unemployment and all this other bullshit. It's happening, it's gonna keep happening, deal with it. We shoulda seen this coming. I did. Maybe only since freshman year at UNC, but I saw it. I watched a documentary about peak oil and then I called my family telling them they should move to a city so they wouldn't have to drive places and their lives wouldn't be ruined, but of course they thought I was fully of shit. They think I have no foresight, but I think I might have too much. I can't see the potential outcome of anything I do, namely attaining a college degree, because I know shit these days is changing so fast. Shit gets outdated so quickly and I mean.. if shit gets real bad, I think there could be a future in a lot of the things my parents think seem completely dumb now, like local organic farming shit. I mean.. ya'll are gonna see. 10 years, I say, and shit's gonna be so crazy. Dammmmn. Enough rambling.)
Enough.
Too much, probably.
Goodnight. I know nobody deals with LJ anymore, so whatevs.
Much llove (like llama love)
-Claire Bustine Stromberg