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So, I think it's really puzzling when people post a lj entry that is private, and marked for only one person and then, they feel like they need to share it with people. So, in order to make things a lot easier for everyone, I will just make this entry public, then, Jena, you won't have to relay it to your friends so that they can comment on what was said. While I feel no need to defend myself, I feel that maybe I should clarify what the post meant, to alleviate some people's minds... I posted a journal entry about how I thought that Heidi's girlfriend, who she loves VERY much, is an idiot. My journal entry was based on conversations that I had with Heidi when she was upset, and I felt that I needed to convey some things to Jena, so I posted a PRIVATE JOURNAL entry to her, in my journal. When doing this, I did not think of it as a lash at Jena, or talking bad about her. I thought of it more as a conversation that I wanted to have, but it was just easier to write it in my journal and have it so only she could read it. So, fine. Then, I posted a semi-automatic livejournal update, to which, her friend Mandi posted a reply that was way off the wall, and the only way she would have posted anything like that was if she was shown the post that I wrote to Jena. So now, I'm sitting here, and I am thinking about how insane this whole tailspin of events is. I feel like I can't even post anything in my own journal. As far as I see things, nothing that I said should have offended ANYONE. What I said was merely how I felt, and how other people that are friends with Heidi felt, I am sure. There is one basic underlying fact that is so obvious to people... if someone is YOUR friend, that is where their loyalties lie. I've been friends with Heidi for 4 years, and we've been through a lot of stuff together, and no matter what happens, we are friends, I mean, relationships come and go, but friendships are still there. I mean, Mandi, who doesn't know CRAP about me, posted a comment defending Jena. And how do I feel about that? I think it's cool. I mean... this is an open forum, right? We write in our journals to allow our feelings to be read and interpreted by others, and to share in our lives with our friends. So I really do not care who reads this, or who wants to know whatever, but what I wrote in my private entry to Jena is as follows :
" Hey, Jena, you're an idiot. there are people that would kill to date heidi, would take care of her and love her and never be an idiot and here you are, having her, having her love, her kisses, her full attention, her funny quirkiness, her ability to take any negative situation and turn it into something beautiful and you're destroying her. You're turning her smile upside down. You're taking her disease filled head and making her worse. You're not taking care of her, you're hurting her. You're causing drama that is only going to cause her brain to fry like an egg in a frying pan, and why, because you are selfish and you don't want anyone else to have her? because you don't want anyone to feel the love she has? because you think you deserve it all. well, if you honestly felt that way then you would stop causing the drama, you would ensure Heidi was doing things that were not destroying her. You would make sure that she got enough rest and that she was well taken care of. Yea, Jena, I think you are an idiot, because I would give ANYTHING to have my best friend here with me, and you have her, and you are hurting her. Jena, why can't you love my friend with everything that you have? I mean, think about your BEST FRIEND... and now think about how it makes you feel when they are hurting, when you feel like someone is using and abusing them. Jena, Heidi loves you.... can't you love her back with all you have?"
I mean, that was the main portion that was to her. So if you have something to say, then go ahead, say it. I wrote it defending my freind, her feelings, her heart, and her physical well being, because Heidi is my friend, and I care about her, and I am sick of seeing people hurt her. I know that she loves Jena, with everything that she has, and she wants things to be perfect and work out. And there is a whole state of people, including me, who are all dying to meet Jena and share in Heidi's joy of the love that she has for Jena, because that is what friends do.
Well, I have things to do, so I am out like a trout....
Have a wonderous day, and remember, life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the places and moments that take our breath away.
" Hey, Jena, you're an idiot. there are people that would kill to date heidi, would take care of her and love her and never be an idiot and here you are, having her, having her love, her kisses, her full attention, her funny quirkiness, her ability to take any negative situation and turn it into something beautiful and you're destroying her. You're turning her smile upside down. You're taking her disease filled head and making her worse. You're not taking care of her, you're hurting her. You're causing drama that is only going to cause her brain to fry like an egg in a frying pan, and why, because you are selfish and you don't want anyone else to have her? because you don't want anyone to feel the love she has? because you think you deserve it all. well, if you honestly felt that way then you would stop causing the drama, you would ensure Heidi was doing things that were not destroying her. You would make sure that she got enough rest and that she was well taken care of. Yea, Jena, I think you are an idiot, because I would give ANYTHING to have my best friend here with me, and you have her, and you are hurting her. Jena, why can't you love my friend with everything that you have? I mean, think about your BEST FRIEND... and now think about how it makes you feel when they are hurting, when you feel like someone is using and abusing them. Jena, Heidi loves you.... can't you love her back with all you have?"
I mean, that was the main portion that was to her. So if you have something to say, then go ahead, say it. I wrote it defending my freind, her feelings, her heart, and her physical well being, because Heidi is my friend, and I care about her, and I am sick of seeing people hurt her. I know that she loves Jena, with everything that she has, and she wants things to be perfect and work out. And there is a whole state of people, including me, who are all dying to meet Jena and share in Heidi's joy of the love that she has for Jena, because that is what friends do.
Well, I have things to do, so I am out like a trout....
Have a wonderous day, and remember, life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the places and moments that take our breath away.