*Thinks*
So I'm in the thought process again....
Sunnie keeps on saying my head's gonna explode if I keep on thinking. Then giggles cos she imgaines how funny it would be. Dork. But my adorable dork. So thats all that matters.
So I had a lovely break down of sorts last weekend. Im still unsure if it was PMS or just the fact my mood decided to swing to psycho.
Either way, its been a while since I was like that. And thats concerning. Last time I went to hospital for that.
Luckily I did no damage to myself for that. Im working hard to keep the thought process back together. But ive done some pretty bad emotional damage this time to a lot of people because I kept myself in denial about how fucked up I actually am.
My thought process keeps on going back to that same thought. How? is not why I'm like this. Ive long accepted that im always gonna have a different thought and emotional processing mind than most people. But I just keep thinking how did I let myself get like this? How could I deny myself and in the end hurt myself? How could I allow myself to shut down instead of reaching out?
I guess its a blame thing which I gotta stop doing. I just have to.....let go I guess....
C xxx
Sunnie keeps on saying my head's gonna explode if I keep on thinking. Then giggles cos she imgaines how funny it would be. Dork. But my adorable dork. So thats all that matters.
So I had a lovely break down of sorts last weekend. Im still unsure if it was PMS or just the fact my mood decided to swing to psycho.
Either way, its been a while since I was like that. And thats concerning. Last time I went to hospital for that.
Luckily I did no damage to myself for that. Im working hard to keep the thought process back together. But ive done some pretty bad emotional damage this time to a lot of people because I kept myself in denial about how fucked up I actually am.
My thought process keeps on going back to that same thought. How? is not why I'm like this. Ive long accepted that im always gonna have a different thought and emotional processing mind than most people. But I just keep thinking how did I let myself get like this? How could I deny myself and in the end hurt myself? How could I allow myself to shut down instead of reaching out?
I guess its a blame thing which I gotta stop doing. I just have to.....let go I guess....
C xxx