Now approaching the event horizon
It takes a lot of courage to run away from certain death. - Rincewind
I saw my brother for the first time in a week today. Sadly, I feel little has been remedied. And what's worse is I think the lesson, is that nothing gets better so just celebrate when you livethrough another guilt ridden day until you can find your own time to forget somehow. It's hard to swallow that you're responsible for pain when only good intentions motivate you. So when you frustate yourself on a seemingly lost cause, you come to an inevitable decision: Do you listen to the thunder once it's on your doorstep, or do you stand defiant and face the storm you've called down? I don't think you're much good if you can't take the blows, however they may land, for mistakes you've made. So don't let yourself off easy. Everyone else does enough of that. You've been so self centered you owe it to those you've betrayed to lower your defenses and be ready for a confirmed critical. Just accept the shoulders offered, they need to know they can help. But never forget your responsibility. It will give you purpose. Just don't cry. It only proves you're not strong enough to do anyone any good. Lead by example. Nobody gets better, but quality deiversions are a precious commodity. A smile is still a smile.
I saw my brother for the first time in a week today. Sadly, I feel little has been remedied. And what's worse is I think the lesson, is that nothing gets better so just celebrate when you livethrough another guilt ridden day until you can find your own time to forget somehow. It's hard to swallow that you're responsible for pain when only good intentions motivate you. So when you frustate yourself on a seemingly lost cause, you come to an inevitable decision: Do you listen to the thunder once it's on your doorstep, or do you stand defiant and face the storm you've called down? I don't think you're much good if you can't take the blows, however they may land, for mistakes you've made. So don't let yourself off easy. Everyone else does enough of that. You've been so self centered you owe it to those you've betrayed to lower your defenses and be ready for a confirmed critical. Just accept the shoulders offered, they need to know they can help. But never forget your responsibility. It will give you purpose. Just don't cry. It only proves you're not strong enough to do anyone any good. Lead by example. Nobody gets better, but quality deiversions are a precious commodity. A smile is still a smile.