Do what, now?
Just got out of what I consider one of my shortest showers ever. Or, would be if I didn't count the time spent in the shower and just out of reach of the water that would just not quite warm up. Do not like lukewarm showers. Want hot water.
For the past few nights. Since this past Tuesday, in fact, I've been falling asleep on the phone with Gilead. Twice a call lasted 10+ hours... And at least with one, it was pretty much all conversation. ♥
It made me a little sad, though, that it wasn't possible to fall asleep together tonight as well. It was entirely too easy to get used to. ...But, oh well. At least I still got some phone conversation.
.. While alternating between sitting outside and getting chilly, or walking the halls and dealing with somewhat echo-y halls. And probably less privacy than what I had outside. Roommate was around in the room... Although after I got off the phone and went back to my room I found out she'd left for a bit. Could've ended up with a little bit of comfortable privacy, anyway.. Ha. Ha.
Asked Cameron a random question, today:
CK: >> am I crazy? xD
Cameron: yes.
CK: good, bad or neutral crazy? xD
Cameron: good crazy
CK: okay then
Doesn't really mean much... I feel kinda crazy though, when it comes to guys and relationships and love and whatever.
I'm pretty sure that all most of the relationships I have ever been in were... rather unexpected to me. Due to not looking, not noticing, or just..not having high expectations, I don't know.
It seems to come as a surprise to me when I realize how much I care, too, especially if it seems like a small amount of time to me. So I tell myself I'm crazy and how can I be sure and what am I thinking and...whatever. Confusing. I probably shouldn't doubt the thoughts that seem to come unbidden. Maybe.
It is.. past time for sleep. I'm thinking one of the few good things about the coming of morning is that I have lemon-poppyseed mini-muffins to look forward to eating. Maybe it comes close to being able to cancel out the fact that I have to get up for my 9am Computer Info & Access class.
For the past few nights. Since this past Tuesday, in fact, I've been falling asleep on the phone with Gilead. Twice a call lasted 10+ hours... And at least with one, it was pretty much all conversation. ♥
It made me a little sad, though, that it wasn't possible to fall asleep together tonight as well. It was entirely too easy to get used to. ...But, oh well. At least I still got some phone conversation.
.. While alternating between sitting outside and getting chilly, or walking the halls and dealing with somewhat echo-y halls. And probably less privacy than what I had outside. Roommate was around in the room... Although after I got off the phone and went back to my room I found out she'd left for a bit. Could've ended up with a little bit of comfortable privacy, anyway.. Ha. Ha.
Asked Cameron a random question, today:
CK: >> am I crazy? xD
Cameron: yes.
CK: good, bad or neutral crazy? xD
Cameron: good crazy
CK: okay then
Doesn't really mean much... I feel kinda crazy though, when it comes to guys and relationships and love and whatever.
I'm pretty sure that all most of the relationships I have ever been in were... rather unexpected to me. Due to not looking, not noticing, or just..not having high expectations, I don't know.
It seems to come as a surprise to me when I realize how much I care, too, especially if it seems like a small amount of time to me. So I tell myself I'm crazy and how can I be sure and what am I thinking and...whatever. Confusing. I probably shouldn't doubt the thoughts that seem to come unbidden. Maybe.
It is.. past time for sleep. I'm thinking one of the few good things about the coming of morning is that I have lemon-poppyseed mini-muffins to look forward to eating. Maybe it comes close to being able to cancel out the fact that I have to get up for my 9am Computer Info & Access class.