Info, updates and ranting. [sarc]Yay![/sarc]
So, I'm now signed up to take the ACT in April. I'm not sure what to think about that. Augh, graduation is coming closer, ACT to take, figuring out what the hell I'm going to do next is looming closer.. College? Work? Something else? ..... grah....
Going to church and shopping tomorrow. I got about.. 2 weeks? to get a formal dress for the homeschool group's jr/sr banquet. haha.
Supposed to have the whole first act of the play memorized by next thursday. 180 lines, here I come! yayuh, baby. Procrastinator extraordinair, I don't think i have any memorized well enough that I don't have to look at the book to say it.
Mississippi Mud Cake ice cream is nummy. Who doesn't love chocolate ice cream, chocolate cake, pecans and frosting all in one handy-dandy spot?
Kyle messaged me on myspace a week about calling me, finally called me last friday... when I was at the mall prior to going to a used book sale.
At the mall trying on formal dresses. Yeah. Had to tell him I'd call him later, did so after leaving the mall and! ...he's on his way somewhere and couldn't talk. Phone-tag FTW!. He hasn't called me again, yet. But I'm pretty sure he's still working evening/nights at the nursing home, and he's in the national guard or whatever so I'm assuming he doesn't have free weekends either, and school so. Not surprising I guess. But him getting in touch with me after a couple months+ without.. I'm kind of wistful of how things were soon after we met and all. I find myself wishing for a relationship again, but the only guys I seem to meet who're show interest in me either I never see again. Rarely get a hold of me, or live some 200-400+ miles away and only know me online. And barely, at that.
I miss Alex, too. The last time he IMed me was after I'd sent him an email of "I miss you". I'd IM him when I see him online, but I hesitate because he did tell me once he was tired of people IMing him as soon as he came online and all and sometimes when he wasn't in the mood to talk/wasn't planning on being on long. So I've left it up to him to choose to talk to me. Currently it seems like he doesn't care to, what with seeing him online, sometimes for a couple hours, and nothing. Though I'm supposing that conversation would suck anyway, since I'm not even sure when our last GOOD conversation was.
I'm hoping that this is all simply due to his stress of school + work + his often-moody-ness and that come spring break, and more so summer break, that things will get a little better again. But I don't know. Currently I feel lacking one of the people I care to/want to talk to the most, and it sucks. I don't know if things will end up staying like this, or hell, does he still care about me? I hate being so worried about that, I hate the doubt.
I feel lacking so many of the older friends I've made and gotten used to telling things to. Danneh's still around to talk to (♥), and I've made new friends so I'm not bored quite as often, but its not the same.
Going to church and shopping tomorrow. I got about.. 2 weeks? to get a formal dress for the homeschool group's jr/sr banquet. haha.
Supposed to have the whole first act of the play memorized by next thursday. 180 lines, here I come! yayuh, baby. Procrastinator extraordinair, I don't think i have any memorized well enough that I don't have to look at the book to say it.
Mississippi Mud Cake ice cream is nummy. Who doesn't love chocolate ice cream, chocolate cake, pecans and frosting all in one handy-dandy spot?
Kyle messaged me on myspace a week about calling me, finally called me last friday... when I was at the mall prior to going to a used book sale.
At the mall trying on formal dresses. Yeah. Had to tell him I'd call him later, did so after leaving the mall and! ...he's on his way somewhere and couldn't talk. Phone-tag FTW!. He hasn't called me again, yet. But I'm pretty sure he's still working evening/nights at the nursing home, and he's in the national guard or whatever so I'm assuming he doesn't have free weekends either, and school so. Not surprising I guess. But him getting in touch with me after a couple months+ without.. I'm kind of wistful of how things were soon after we met and all. I find myself wishing for a relationship again, but the only guys I seem to meet who're show interest in me either I never see again. Rarely get a hold of me, or live some 200-400+ miles away and only know me online. And barely, at that.
I miss Alex, too. The last time he IMed me was after I'd sent him an email of "I miss you". I'd IM him when I see him online, but I hesitate because he did tell me once he was tired of people IMing him as soon as he came online and all and sometimes when he wasn't in the mood to talk/wasn't planning on being on long. So I've left it up to him to choose to talk to me. Currently it seems like he doesn't care to, what with seeing him online, sometimes for a couple hours, and nothing. Though I'm supposing that conversation would suck anyway, since I'm not even sure when our last GOOD conversation was.
I'm hoping that this is all simply due to his stress of school + work + his often-moody-ness and that come spring break, and more so summer break, that things will get a little better again. But I don't know. Currently I feel lacking one of the people I care to/want to talk to the most, and it sucks. I don't know if things will end up staying like this, or hell, does he still care about me? I hate being so worried about that, I hate the doubt.
I feel lacking so many of the older friends I've made and gotten used to telling things to. Danneh's still around to talk to (♥), and I've made new friends so I'm not bored quite as often, but its not the same.