Lose One Friend, Lose All Friends, Lose Yourself.
Ive been thinking about this stuff for awhile and I wasnt gonna post it but i decided that i should so if you dont wanna read it, you dont have to.
Well lately I've been having mixed emotions about pretty much everything thats going on im my life. Things have been weird lately with friends and everything. Sometimes I don't care about like anything or anyone and I find myself not caring about friendships that I've been neglecting. I used to be so close with all of my friends and now I feel that I don't really have anyone that I tell everything to and that I can really consider a best friend. I guess I'll always have kristin cuz we can never go very long or very far without each other but other than her, I don't really have anyone anymore and I'm sure most of it is my fault. Katie, I thought that we had some good time together during the hurricane but things that she said and did made me think that it meant nothing to her. Maria is the same way, I've been trying to hang out with her lately but it never seems like I count as a friend. I guess I'm the person that everyone expects to be there and is just in the background? I dont know anymore. I see myself giving up on friendships that were really strong at one point. I'm sure that once softball starts, I'll hang out with Kristin, Jen, and Gillian a lot again but now, I never see them. I'm glad that Jen is happy now with Andrew and I'm so happy that she finally found someone that treats her right, at least better than boys that she's had in the past. Chelsea I've pretty much just given up on ever being close with her again cuz I dunno there just seems to be always something in the way or something more important to her in the picture. Sometimes it seems like people don't think im cool enough cuz i dont party as much as everyone else or cuz i dont smoke. Wow ok im done complaining but i really needed to get that stuff out onto something at least out of my head. Today i did nothing but I got a new phone! actually it was the phone that i lost before but oh well! Watched under the tuscan sun or somethin...made me want a boyfriend... ok im done bitching.
Well lately I've been having mixed emotions about pretty much everything thats going on im my life. Things have been weird lately with friends and everything. Sometimes I don't care about like anything or anyone and I find myself not caring about friendships that I've been neglecting. I used to be so close with all of my friends and now I feel that I don't really have anyone that I tell everything to and that I can really consider a best friend. I guess I'll always have kristin cuz we can never go very long or very far without each other but other than her, I don't really have anyone anymore and I'm sure most of it is my fault. Katie, I thought that we had some good time together during the hurricane but things that she said and did made me think that it meant nothing to her. Maria is the same way, I've been trying to hang out with her lately but it never seems like I count as a friend. I guess I'm the person that everyone expects to be there and is just in the background? I dont know anymore. I see myself giving up on friendships that were really strong at one point. I'm sure that once softball starts, I'll hang out with Kristin, Jen, and Gillian a lot again but now, I never see them. I'm glad that Jen is happy now with Andrew and I'm so happy that she finally found someone that treats her right, at least better than boys that she's had in the past. Chelsea I've pretty much just given up on ever being close with her again cuz I dunno there just seems to be always something in the way or something more important to her in the picture. Sometimes it seems like people don't think im cool enough cuz i dont party as much as everyone else or cuz i dont smoke. Wow ok im done complaining but i really needed to get that stuff out onto something at least out of my head. Today i did nothing but I got a new phone! actually it was the phone that i lost before but oh well! Watched under the tuscan sun or somethin...made me want a boyfriend... ok im done bitching.