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Today was very VERY depressing for me, and i realized why about 3 hours ago, It's that girl thing... HA! And there is other things too, like hmmm let's see... I HAVE NO FUCKING FRIENDS... Whewww i'm glad i got that out. I mean like i do have friends, but it would be really REALLY nice for some of them to ask me to hang out sometime... I'm off of work for a whole week, i don't go back prolly until monday, And do u know that this whole week the only person i'll be with probably is Cj. And that's really bad. I love cj don't get me wrong, but it's time for me to go out and be with my friends. It's been building up inside me for a month now, and today i just couldn't take it anymore and i blew up! I was crying off and on all day, and i didn't even want anyone to see it because i don't want any of them to know what's bothering me and for them to say "awe melly let's hang out this weekend", because that is not want i want. They did that today because they felt bad i guess, and i don't want them to feel bad i want them to actually want to hang out with me. I don't like inviting myself to hang out with ppl, and i'm not going to do that. So i guess i will just sit here and wait for them to come to me. Because they only two ppl i really want to hang out with is Angie and Jackie, but i'm not going to be the one to tell them about it. Yea 2morrow i will go to school and act like everything is ok and hopefully be in a good mood, but really i'm hurting on the inside. Tonight was fun i guess, i got to be with my little sisters and my aunt to make chocolate suckers hehe... Paige was also there, but i try to block her out because yea i really can't stand her anymore... I'm now just waiting for Cj to call me so i can go to bed... I'm tired. I think 2morrow imma straighten my hair... I dunno, maybe.... But imma go and lay down and wait for him to call, I'll write back 2morrow maybe i will have a better day 2morrow and i will write something exciting in here HAHAHA yea ok. Byes