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Dear internets,
I feel like it's been forever since we last talked! Probably because it's been over two months since I posted and I honestly am not sure how that happened.
Anyway. Work continues to be work and I stress about it all the time but I'm trying to let go of that. I might be ultimately responsible for everything that happens, and I think it's important and valuable, but it's not actually life and death. I should try not to lose so much sleep over it.
I'd mentioned a couple of times that I was finally moving, which I did in the middle of February. Sort of. I ended up signing my lease within days of starting a housesitting job (favour?), which ended up getting extended and lasting nearly a month. Which meant that between the middle of February and the middle of March all my stuff was scattered between three places--four if I count work, which I probably should considering how much stuff I stashed in the office--and I felt fairly lost and adrift until I finally actually moved in. I am totally still living out of boxes.
The house is about two blocks from work, which on the one hand is convenient and on the other hand means that I can be expected to pop over at a moment's notice for...pretty much anything. But today I came home for lunch and basically just took my pants off and sat down and read a book for an hour and it felt like the most decadent thing ever.
Still singing. Hoping I'm doing okay, but I have no objectivity and I don't know how to get personal feedback without seeming like I'm looking for validation. (Man, even just typing that makes me feel kind of lame.) Performing with both groups in a couple of weeks, then in late May with a repertoire we haven't even starting working on yet. Eep. Missing writing. Should probably sacrifice something for it, because I know by now that my mental health often rests on having that outlet, and that's part of what's been wrong this last while.
Other things have happened too. Some good, some not so.
Anyway, internets, that's been my life these past couple of months. How are you?
Love,
CJ
This entry was originally posted at http://cj.dreamwidth.org/20369.html.
I feel like it's been forever since we last talked! Probably because it's been over two months since I posted and I honestly am not sure how that happened.
Anyway. Work continues to be work and I stress about it all the time but I'm trying to let go of that. I might be ultimately responsible for everything that happens, and I think it's important and valuable, but it's not actually life and death. I should try not to lose so much sleep over it.
I'd mentioned a couple of times that I was finally moving, which I did in the middle of February. Sort of. I ended up signing my lease within days of starting a housesitting job (favour?), which ended up getting extended and lasting nearly a month. Which meant that between the middle of February and the middle of March all my stuff was scattered between three places--four if I count work, which I probably should considering how much stuff I stashed in the office--and I felt fairly lost and adrift until I finally actually moved in. I am totally still living out of boxes.
The house is about two blocks from work, which on the one hand is convenient and on the other hand means that I can be expected to pop over at a moment's notice for...pretty much anything. But today I came home for lunch and basically just took my pants off and sat down and read a book for an hour and it felt like the most decadent thing ever.
Still singing. Hoping I'm doing okay, but I have no objectivity and I don't know how to get personal feedback without seeming like I'm looking for validation. (Man, even just typing that makes me feel kind of lame.) Performing with both groups in a couple of weeks, then in late May with a repertoire we haven't even starting working on yet. Eep. Missing writing. Should probably sacrifice something for it, because I know by now that my mental health often rests on having that outlet, and that's part of what's been wrong this last while.
Other things have happened too. Some good, some not so.
Anyway, internets, that's been my life these past couple of months. How are you?
Love,
CJ
This entry was originally posted at http://cj.dreamwidth.org/20369.html.