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It's been awhile friends and my heavy eyes miss you all. My life has been a summer of fun, work, more work, exhaustion, sleep deprivation, drinking, randomness, people, and places. I have been too busy for my own good and for my friend's. My distant friends have suffered i'm affraid I am not online much and I don't get on my phone much. my local friends though have gotten closer to them and it's comforting, I just wish it would have happened you know... in high school but no complaints from me. My party is in less than a month. I need to do work before the party, I need sleep, I need laughs... lots to keep me sane. I miss you all
More tired now than when I was working
I'm working myself in a different way
some would say it's alright
it's normal, but I like to fight
fight the rules set up by everyone
yet I find myself here nor there
lonely but not alone
frustrated but at ease
never before has such peace fallen
limp accross my life and body which I am grateful for
maybe I should flee
get to another scene
A different country
a different life
no worries and god damn no strife...
Maybe that's the problem maybe that's what I need... problems
I have no problems as of now except those that dwell within me
should I feel
do I deserve anything more than sweat and hard work can bring
I guess I have to
accept this plan
accept this uneasy stale peace
I find my mind drifting in and out of
You think I think of things I do not
Do not glorify which you know not
For I care and care alot
but you take it too well
you take it too hard
you are not my heroin and I not yours
Even if it means nothing
I'm ok with it
but why
maybe I should and maybe not
I'm more choosey now than ever before
fight my light and i'll fight yours
rambles of nothings is all this is
come to me and I'll show you this
the meaning of it all
and how to be ok with not knowing a thing
More tired now than when I was working
I'm working myself in a different way
some would say it's alright
it's normal, but I like to fight
fight the rules set up by everyone
yet I find myself here nor there
lonely but not alone
frustrated but at ease
never before has such peace fallen
limp accross my life and body which I am grateful for
maybe I should flee
get to another scene
A different country
a different life
no worries and god damn no strife...
Maybe that's the problem maybe that's what I need... problems
I have no problems as of now except those that dwell within me
should I feel
do I deserve anything more than sweat and hard work can bring
I guess I have to
accept this plan
accept this uneasy stale peace
I find my mind drifting in and out of
You think I think of things I do not
Do not glorify which you know not
For I care and care alot
but you take it too well
you take it too hard
you are not my heroin and I not yours
Even if it means nothing
I'm ok with it
but why
maybe I should and maybe not
I'm more choosey now than ever before
fight my light and i'll fight yours
rambles of nothings is all this is
come to me and I'll show you this
the meaning of it all
and how to be ok with not knowing a thing