Life
Jon broke up with me on Dec 23rd. I pretty much already knew it was going to happen, so it was no surprise or anything. We had been fighting about so many things like him being gone all the time. I guess when it comes down to it, Jon and I are a lot more different than we thought or at least used to be and that we want different things. In a way, I guess it's like how Matt and I broke up. That seems so long ago now.
As it happened to be, on the 23rd, I texted a friend of both Jon and myself: Luda. That is short for his last name, Ludescher. MIchael Alan Ludescher. Jon and I met Luda through Kyle who went to high school with Luda and Luda's friends. Kyle invited Luda and Luda's best boy buddy, Nick, to play D&D with us back in August or so. So we played D&D and lot and a bit of WoD together. Anyway, Luda's high school sweetheart and fiancee, Caitlin, broke up with him a few days before Thanksgiving. She said she still loves him but isn't in love with him anymore. I am almost sure she feel for someone back in New York, where she is going to school now. She doesn't even talk to Luda anymore.
So I had texted Luda to give him my sympathy for the breakup. I remember Matt and I breaking up... I was devastated for a long time and Luda... I knew he must have been hurting a lot on the inside but in the time I had spent with him at Kyle's and whatnot he didn't seem sad at all so I knew he was just putting on a show so his friends wouldn't worry about him. That night Luda and I ended up going to Perkins. Instead of a big group like it usually was, it was just the two of us. We just sat and ate and talked for hours and hours. About five, I think. I told him about Jon breaking up with me and how he gave me the same reason Caitlin. We talked a lot of Jon and I and some about him and Caitlin. Mostly we just talked about ourselves but in that special take turns revealing yourself kind of way where you are excited to learn about someone else.
Luda invited me to spending Christmas with him and his family. He said his family wouldn't probably poke and prod at us and assume that we were going out but that didn't really bother me. If I werein thier position I would assume that too.
When I got home that night around three in the morning, Jon was unhappy. I don't normally spend time one on one with boys when I am in a relationship. But that night I wasn't and I hated being in that house. It was a very sweet sort of free feeling to be out of it with Luda. Anyway, I also didn't feel bad since Jonw as always spending two to five hours at a time talking with Brianna at Perkin or Walmart or her house or whatever. I kind of wanted to just tell him to screw off. I didn't.
On Christmas Eve I saw Luda again. I didn't have to work that day but I was kind of sick. Luda picked me up sometime in the evening. Everything was closed so we just drove around for hours. After a while of just driving and talking more, we went to Pat and Devin's. Neither of them were home since Devin was in NY with his family and Pat was with his family too. We played chess and checkers. I lost at both but I put up a much better fight at checkers. It was so much fun.
Here comes some irony for you and just one way where Luda and I are so much alike: Christmas Day. I woke up and went out into the living room. Mouse and Casey were there with thier kids and everyone was about ready to open gifts. I sat next to Jon, not because I wanted to, but because he had called me cold and standoffish the previous night. I could tell Linda, Mouse, and Casey were happy that I was around. They all really care for me. Jon, unfortunetly did things like fluff my shoulder like a pillow and layed on it that made me really uncomfortable. I wanted to shove him off. I didn't. After presents and relaxing for a small bit, the family all left to go to Linda's parents house. Shortly after they left, Luda picked me up.
Luda had spent his Christmas morning with Caitlin's family. Her mom, Raleen.... she truely loves Luda like a son. It's easy to see that when you meet her. Anyhow, Caitlin didn't sit next to Luda and she hardly said anything to him at all. Apparently when she did, she was mean about it. When Luda came to pick me up we talked about how our Christmas' were so far and we went to pick up his dad (who looks NOTHING like Luda). The three of us went to Luda's grandparents house. It was this tiny but super adorable house and that toasty warm so I really liked it.
After everyone had gotten there, there were about twenty five people there that I met. Almost all of them were super friendly but I had a feeling that Luda was answering a lot of are you two going out questions when I wasn't around him. But like I said, I didn't care if they thought that or not. I learned how to play two new card games but I didn't like the second one much. I don't even remeber what it was. Luda was saying how I should play and I kept refusing. So he offered me a deal: Play the card game, or sit in his lap while he plays. He did not expect to to choose to sit in his lap. ^_^ So I did and I held the cards and he tried to further teach me how to play for a few hours. He rubbed my back and I guess we kind of flirted back and forth by doing small things like stroking each other's hands.
After cards we sat on the couch together to watch the rest of The Dark Knight (it had started while we were still playing). I sat very close to Luda, with my legs crossed and my knee sort of on top of his leg. Not too long after we were settled into the couch and watching, Luda asked me if he could put his arm around me. I thought it was so cute that he asked. Ah, he is such a sweet boy. So I said it was fine and we cuddled and watched the movie. By the end we were holding hands and pretty snuggled against each other. He is so comfortable.
After the movie, everyone packed up and left. I didn't want to go home. I guess I was kind of sneaky but I knew that Luda wanted the end result too. See, he (like me) was used to sleeping next to somebody. He had been having a lot of trouble sleeping by himself. I always have trouble sleeping by myself. I wanted to sleep next to him that night and I was pretty sure Luda wanted to as well. So since when he invited me to go to his grandparents house, he said we would watch movies, and we had only watched one so far, I reminded him that he owed me. So we went back to Pat and Devin's, settled down on the couch there and watched The Boondock Saints. It was a good movie. Luda stroked my cheek for part of it and when I looked upa t him, he asked if he could kiss me. So we kissed a bit (omg, good kisser). He asked where I wanted to sleep and I told him that I wanted to sleep there with him if it was okay. He also asked me out that day.
I know a lot of people would think it was wrong of me to say yes. That Luda was rebounding on me or that I was rebounding on him or both. Or that it's good to be single and I need time to get over Jon. I don't agree with any of it. Luda is an amazing person and Jon and I had been over far before the 23rd.
So Luda and I are going out now. He is so sweet and caring and is always thinking of me. I love him so much. But when I hear about the way that Caitlin treated him, I get mad and want to yell at her. :(
Anyway, Luda... so amazing! We like almost all the same things. So much in common. Our likes, dislikes, the way we were brought up. He even like the stupid things that I like and no one else does like Jarjar. I'm so attached to him already, it's pretty ridiculous. I hope I never loose him.
As it happened to be, on the 23rd, I texted a friend of both Jon and myself: Luda. That is short for his last name, Ludescher. MIchael Alan Ludescher. Jon and I met Luda through Kyle who went to high school with Luda and Luda's friends. Kyle invited Luda and Luda's best boy buddy, Nick, to play D&D with us back in August or so. So we played D&D and lot and a bit of WoD together. Anyway, Luda's high school sweetheart and fiancee, Caitlin, broke up with him a few days before Thanksgiving. She said she still loves him but isn't in love with him anymore. I am almost sure she feel for someone back in New York, where she is going to school now. She doesn't even talk to Luda anymore.
So I had texted Luda to give him my sympathy for the breakup. I remember Matt and I breaking up... I was devastated for a long time and Luda... I knew he must have been hurting a lot on the inside but in the time I had spent with him at Kyle's and whatnot he didn't seem sad at all so I knew he was just putting on a show so his friends wouldn't worry about him. That night Luda and I ended up going to Perkins. Instead of a big group like it usually was, it was just the two of us. We just sat and ate and talked for hours and hours. About five, I think. I told him about Jon breaking up with me and how he gave me the same reason Caitlin. We talked a lot of Jon and I and some about him and Caitlin. Mostly we just talked about ourselves but in that special take turns revealing yourself kind of way where you are excited to learn about someone else.
Luda invited me to spending Christmas with him and his family. He said his family wouldn't probably poke and prod at us and assume that we were going out but that didn't really bother me. If I werein thier position I would assume that too.
When I got home that night around three in the morning, Jon was unhappy. I don't normally spend time one on one with boys when I am in a relationship. But that night I wasn't and I hated being in that house. It was a very sweet sort of free feeling to be out of it with Luda. Anyway, I also didn't feel bad since Jonw as always spending two to five hours at a time talking with Brianna at Perkin or Walmart or her house or whatever. I kind of wanted to just tell him to screw off. I didn't.
On Christmas Eve I saw Luda again. I didn't have to work that day but I was kind of sick. Luda picked me up sometime in the evening. Everything was closed so we just drove around for hours. After a while of just driving and talking more, we went to Pat and Devin's. Neither of them were home since Devin was in NY with his family and Pat was with his family too. We played chess and checkers. I lost at both but I put up a much better fight at checkers. It was so much fun.
Here comes some irony for you and just one way where Luda and I are so much alike: Christmas Day. I woke up and went out into the living room. Mouse and Casey were there with thier kids and everyone was about ready to open gifts. I sat next to Jon, not because I wanted to, but because he had called me cold and standoffish the previous night. I could tell Linda, Mouse, and Casey were happy that I was around. They all really care for me. Jon, unfortunetly did things like fluff my shoulder like a pillow and layed on it that made me really uncomfortable. I wanted to shove him off. I didn't. After presents and relaxing for a small bit, the family all left to go to Linda's parents house. Shortly after they left, Luda picked me up.
Luda had spent his Christmas morning with Caitlin's family. Her mom, Raleen.... she truely loves Luda like a son. It's easy to see that when you meet her. Anyhow, Caitlin didn't sit next to Luda and she hardly said anything to him at all. Apparently when she did, she was mean about it. When Luda came to pick me up we talked about how our Christmas' were so far and we went to pick up his dad (who looks NOTHING like Luda). The three of us went to Luda's grandparents house. It was this tiny but super adorable house and that toasty warm so I really liked it.
After everyone had gotten there, there were about twenty five people there that I met. Almost all of them were super friendly but I had a feeling that Luda was answering a lot of are you two going out questions when I wasn't around him. But like I said, I didn't care if they thought that or not. I learned how to play two new card games but I didn't like the second one much. I don't even remeber what it was. Luda was saying how I should play and I kept refusing. So he offered me a deal: Play the card game, or sit in his lap while he plays. He did not expect to to choose to sit in his lap. ^_^ So I did and I held the cards and he tried to further teach me how to play for a few hours. He rubbed my back and I guess we kind of flirted back and forth by doing small things like stroking each other's hands.
After cards we sat on the couch together to watch the rest of The Dark Knight (it had started while we were still playing). I sat very close to Luda, with my legs crossed and my knee sort of on top of his leg. Not too long after we were settled into the couch and watching, Luda asked me if he could put his arm around me. I thought it was so cute that he asked. Ah, he is such a sweet boy. So I said it was fine and we cuddled and watched the movie. By the end we were holding hands and pretty snuggled against each other. He is so comfortable.
After the movie, everyone packed up and left. I didn't want to go home. I guess I was kind of sneaky but I knew that Luda wanted the end result too. See, he (like me) was used to sleeping next to somebody. He had been having a lot of trouble sleeping by himself. I always have trouble sleeping by myself. I wanted to sleep next to him that night and I was pretty sure Luda wanted to as well. So since when he invited me to go to his grandparents house, he said we would watch movies, and we had only watched one so far, I reminded him that he owed me. So we went back to Pat and Devin's, settled down on the couch there and watched The Boondock Saints. It was a good movie. Luda stroked my cheek for part of it and when I looked upa t him, he asked if he could kiss me. So we kissed a bit (omg, good kisser). He asked where I wanted to sleep and I told him that I wanted to sleep there with him if it was okay. He also asked me out that day.
I know a lot of people would think it was wrong of me to say yes. That Luda was rebounding on me or that I was rebounding on him or both. Or that it's good to be single and I need time to get over Jon. I don't agree with any of it. Luda is an amazing person and Jon and I had been over far before the 23rd.
So Luda and I are going out now. He is so sweet and caring and is always thinking of me. I love him so much. But when I hear about the way that Caitlin treated him, I get mad and want to yell at her. :(
Anyway, Luda... so amazing! We like almost all the same things. So much in common. Our likes, dislikes, the way we were brought up. He even like the stupid things that I like and no one else does like Jarjar. I'm so attached to him already, it's pretty ridiculous. I hope I never loose him.