Can't buy that kind of medicine!
I'm six weeks and one day past my surgery and I'm still feeling something in my gut area. Just below my belly button in the center and just below the skin. It's hard to describe exactly what I'm feeling right there, but it's not pain. It's like a sensitive stinging feeling. It's like having a bad sunburn just below the skin.
So I'm not sure if I should call the surgeon's office or not, to see if that's normal. Will it go away? Should I be at full speed now with training? I'll make that decision next week. After I test it this weekend with a couple of short runs.
My mind is in a better place. Not fully there yet, but my psych is better. I've always felt that my body follows my mind. But it seems in this case it's inverted. As my body heals my mind is getting better, more optimistic and positive. For a while there I was having a pretty hard time. I didn't want to admit this to anyone, and I have not told anyone, but I'll say it here. I was having like some sort of break downs or something. I'd have this terrible sadness come over me and I'd sorta start weeping. Not like full blown weeping like a child, but a heavy chest, lump in my throat, tears coming from my eyes. That sort of thing. It was like my emotions were out of control. And it was an emotion that I had not felt in such a long time that I sorta welcomed it. It was like I embraced the sadness.
Anyway. It was a weird thing to go through. But I think I'm past it now. I'm not waking up in the middle of night filled with sadness and terror - which I did a number of times these past several weeks. My head is in a better place now. I'm feeling pretty good, other than that one spot in my gut. I'm thinking a short easy run tomorrow and Sunday, feel that out and see what's what and then go from there. Once I get back on track with training, get those baseline dopamine, endorphins and serotonin levels back where they need to be, I'll be a new man.
Can't buy that kind of medicine that's for damn sure.
I know that's what my problem is. Get my body chemicals back to levels they need to be and I'll be beast mode once again. Decision made. I start running tomorrow. It's time.