Pointless

[cjdesi]

Maybe I'm a little biased after dealing with technical issuses over the last few days, but I HATE computers. This isn't from a lack of knowledge about them, certainly. I don't think it's a stretch to say that I know more about computers than everyone else in my family -- combined. I kind of always imagined myself as getting a good job and spending my day shuffling about from place to place fixing other people's computers. But the more I think about it, the more I think that if I had that job for more than a month, I would leap from the top of said office building, trying to figure out how to shoot myself and slit my wrists at the same time. The thought has struck me more than once over the years, as well. (A desire not to work with computers for a living, not the building leaping) The problem is, however, I don't know WHAT I want to do. I feel like I've felt my entire life, not sure what I want. There has to be something out there that I'd enjoy doing, but I don't really know what it is yet.

Maybe I'm just blowing off steam. Or maybe this is how I really feel, and after I calm down, I'll just pretend that it wasn't.

EDIT: PS, happy new year!