this is going to be a very very long day

[cjcormier]

Last night i went to my grandmothers for dinner. And i was excited to see everyone whom i hadn't seen in like 50 years especially since I hadn't had thanksgiving with everyone in a while. And i was happy and was like this will be fun. And then someone started to talk about what it would be like to lose a mother at a young age. and wouldn't drop the subject. so i left. I went outside because i swore to god that i wouldn't say anything that would be rude or inconsiderate. And then came inside and helped to clean the dishes and left for good. Its not only that they didn't think of how i would feel if a topic like that came up its how my mom now would feel too. It just sucks that they didn't think about that because now i can't stop thinking about it and can't stop crying. Its not something I'm going to be over in 10 years..or in a lifetime for that matter. she's always going to be here in my heart and so is my new mom. they are both complete opposites which add much more love for both of them. and I will always love them dearly.

Happy turkey day