Love would you stop bothering me!?!
Alright basically i've been working alot at the Lake and when I have days off I go into comtemplative moods. Tonight is one of those nights. I was thinking about what my Coach said after my AC joked about that my life sucks. She supported me and said that I'm probably the only one that understands life. I have a better understanding about life? I found that interesting cause the people who have understood life died soon after. I'm 20 years old now, and still kicking it so today i thought to myself (and i thought it was a good quote) "to understand life, you must not have a life to begin with". I'm not saying that i dont have a life but if you really looked at my life i have just been myself. So what's stopping God from striking me down and taking me up to heaven? Love. I have not figured it out yet. I have only one girlfriend in my life, most people tell me that i am cute and are surprised that i am single, girls in their preteens hit on me, and girls i like play games. WHAT THE FUCK. I'm not trying to sound emo about it i'm just annoyed about this subject. I can gladly help anyone else with their relationship problems except for my own. I tell myself to say fuck it but its slowly losing it effect. Especially when you see the person and a jolt goes through your heart. i dunno its just me ranting cause i'm just confused thats all (so dont worry you're little heads about it)