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Ever since i started secondary school, my eq increased alot . I started becoming a very emotional person when i’m alone. I dont even know why. I tried talking to Shanice about it. But it doesnt help me at all. It makes me even more misersable. I had many thoughts of commiting suicide recently. People always commit suicide when they want to run away, right? But i dont know what am i even trying trying to run away from. That’s why i decided to act happy. I always tried my best to not let any of my friends know what i’m going through. I dont think anyone would notice right? I also did it on my family. I only become myselfwhen im alone. I always cried myself to sleep, thinking why im living such a fucked up life. I only shared sorrows with mr.berry. Maybe i should start sharing this with god. He’ll help me. I also wasnt allowed to cut my wrists or anything, since everyone woud figure out. It just fucking hurt.