Honesty is a lie.
/set timer1 on
/whine
Sometimes I feel like I really understand people... other times I don't understand them at all.
I guess that's a crux of life.
That or honesty is more rare than I've come to convince myself into believing. Is telling a person how you really feel such a traumatic thing? Why string them along? Is taking advantage of kindness always an intentional thing? I'd like to think it's more accidental, and believe that people aren't really trying to hurt others so constantly. Maybe I'm just optimistic.
I can think of at least half a dozen instances right now where people I know are taking advantage of another person, or being taken advantage of. I don't know both sides to all the stories, but I know for a fact that in one instance it's just completely out of line. (Having TWO vehicles when you're only allowed one, and then suggesting that your roommate park at the bottom of a big hill in the winter when there's not enough room for all the cars is just insanely rude. Especially when said roommate is exceptionally accommodating and polite.)
I don't know. If someone asks me how I feel about something, I tell them. Maybe I'm too honest, but I try to be tactful and I never try to intentionally hurt someone's feelings. Still, I would rather hurt their feelings a little bit than lie. Liars just annoy the piss out of me. That and people that commit to something, and then change their mind and can't have the decency to inform you as much. Especially when you directly ask them.
"Do you want to do this?" .. "Maybe.. I'll think about it."
"So? Were you interested?" .. "Yeah, okay.. but not right now."
"Still interested?" .. "Maybe.. possibly.."
"How about now?" .. "Well.. ummm.. uhh.. "
Maybe I try too hard. Maybe I just harass people. I feel that way a lot of the times. I mean, should I have to harass my friends to participate in something that is supposed to be fun? Are they really friends if I constantly feel like I'm bothering them?
I'm not saying I've never been guilty of loss of interest in something. The comic is an excellent example, but, the only person I feel I'm letting down on that count is Erin and I've talked to her about it many times. The fans? Well, they're not paying customers and a certain level of separation is necessary. I'd like to see more comics too, but spending 10-20 hours on one just isn't fun anymore. Since it IS a hobby, and it's NOT fun anymore, I only work on it when I think it WILL be fun.
Another example is running table-top games. BUT, if I get bored running a game, I tell the players. "Hey, I'm starting to lose interest in running the game.. wanna wrap up the story?" I'd like to think I'm being honest. Yes, I'm aware I'm flaking out on being a GM, but why keep pushing the game if it's gonna suck? That's no fun for anyone.
I wish I could find something around town to volunteer with.. or some activity to get involved in. I miss hanging out with Rachel. We did all sorts of stuff. I mean, I know a lot of it is my lack of interest in one of the biggest activities in Marquette (drinking), but still.. it's better than sitting around whining on my LJ.
I think only 2 people read my journal anyway. That's not being emo.. that's just being practical and accepting the truth of the situation. I put very little into LJ, and get very little in return. I'm content with this.
/set timer1 off
/whine
Sometimes I feel like I really understand people... other times I don't understand them at all.
I guess that's a crux of life.
That or honesty is more rare than I've come to convince myself into believing. Is telling a person how you really feel such a traumatic thing? Why string them along? Is taking advantage of kindness always an intentional thing? I'd like to think it's more accidental, and believe that people aren't really trying to hurt others so constantly. Maybe I'm just optimistic.
I can think of at least half a dozen instances right now where people I know are taking advantage of another person, or being taken advantage of. I don't know both sides to all the stories, but I know for a fact that in one instance it's just completely out of line. (Having TWO vehicles when you're only allowed one, and then suggesting that your roommate park at the bottom of a big hill in the winter when there's not enough room for all the cars is just insanely rude. Especially when said roommate is exceptionally accommodating and polite.)
I don't know. If someone asks me how I feel about something, I tell them. Maybe I'm too honest, but I try to be tactful and I never try to intentionally hurt someone's feelings. Still, I would rather hurt their feelings a little bit than lie. Liars just annoy the piss out of me. That and people that commit to something, and then change their mind and can't have the decency to inform you as much. Especially when you directly ask them.
"Do you want to do this?" .. "Maybe.. I'll think about it."
"So? Were you interested?" .. "Yeah, okay.. but not right now."
"Still interested?" .. "Maybe.. possibly.."
"How about now?" .. "Well.. ummm.. uhh.. "
Maybe I try too hard. Maybe I just harass people. I feel that way a lot of the times. I mean, should I have to harass my friends to participate in something that is supposed to be fun? Are they really friends if I constantly feel like I'm bothering them?
I'm not saying I've never been guilty of loss of interest in something. The comic is an excellent example, but, the only person I feel I'm letting down on that count is Erin and I've talked to her about it many times. The fans? Well, they're not paying customers and a certain level of separation is necessary. I'd like to see more comics too, but spending 10-20 hours on one just isn't fun anymore. Since it IS a hobby, and it's NOT fun anymore, I only work on it when I think it WILL be fun.
Another example is running table-top games. BUT, if I get bored running a game, I tell the players. "Hey, I'm starting to lose interest in running the game.. wanna wrap up the story?" I'd like to think I'm being honest. Yes, I'm aware I'm flaking out on being a GM, but why keep pushing the game if it's gonna suck? That's no fun for anyone.
I wish I could find something around town to volunteer with.. or some activity to get involved in. I miss hanging out with Rachel. We did all sorts of stuff. I mean, I know a lot of it is my lack of interest in one of the biggest activities in Marquette (drinking), but still.. it's better than sitting around whining on my LJ.
I think only 2 people read my journal anyway. That's not being emo.. that's just being practical and accepting the truth of the situation. I put very little into LJ, and get very little in return. I'm content with this.
/set timer1 off