i feel afraid and i call your name. i love your voice and your dance insane ...
i have no one.
he's "involved" with someone else after four days. he said she was nothing. he obviously lied. he told me last night that he can't talk to me for a couple months because he needs to get over me. get over me? i don't understand. he's obviously over me. after two years, and already it's started. i can't fathom it. i'm so shocked. i don't know what to make of any of it. i don't understand why he's hurting me like this, it hurts so badly.
i have no one to talk to, absolutely no one. my mom doesn't care, all she can say is that she's taking me to the doctor because she thinks i have an eating disorder. i don't have an appetite anymore because he makes me sick to my stomach. i can't take it. my friends don't care about me. they're so vain, all they care about is who likes whom, but they can't give one ounce of care to their friend who has even been shaking nonstop over this. can't they see that i'm falling apart? my guy friends don't understand, and the ones who do just want to be more than friends (sorry, i'm not like him). my dad's never around, so i can't talk to him. i've really only been talking to my dogs. that's how pathetic i am.
i don't want to get back together with him. i really do not like him. i just want the idea of him. scratch that. i just want the idea of having SOMEONE. i need someone to talk to, to vent to, to hug, and all my options are virtually nonexistent.
seeing his aim profile today was the straw that broke the camel's back. i hate myself. i hate being in my skin. i'm scared that i'll become depressed. when i realized how alone i am, i seriously wanted to kill myself. i hate this, i hate me, i just want to talk to someone. not even my own mother wants to console me. i am always here for everyone and no one is here for me.
i have no meaning to myself or anyone anymore.
he's "involved" with someone else after four days. he said she was nothing. he obviously lied. he told me last night that he can't talk to me for a couple months because he needs to get over me. get over me? i don't understand. he's obviously over me. after two years, and already it's started. i can't fathom it. i'm so shocked. i don't know what to make of any of it. i don't understand why he's hurting me like this, it hurts so badly.
i have no one to talk to, absolutely no one. my mom doesn't care, all she can say is that she's taking me to the doctor because she thinks i have an eating disorder. i don't have an appetite anymore because he makes me sick to my stomach. i can't take it. my friends don't care about me. they're so vain, all they care about is who likes whom, but they can't give one ounce of care to their friend who has even been shaking nonstop over this. can't they see that i'm falling apart? my guy friends don't understand, and the ones who do just want to be more than friends (sorry, i'm not like him). my dad's never around, so i can't talk to him. i've really only been talking to my dogs. that's how pathetic i am.
i don't want to get back together with him. i really do not like him. i just want the idea of him. scratch that. i just want the idea of having SOMEONE. i need someone to talk to, to vent to, to hug, and all my options are virtually nonexistent.
seeing his aim profile today was the straw that broke the camel's back. i hate myself. i hate being in my skin. i'm scared that i'll become depressed. when i realized how alone i am, i seriously wanted to kill myself. i hate this, i hate me, i just want to talk to someone. not even my own mother wants to console me. i am always here for everyone and no one is here for me.
i have no meaning to myself or anyone anymore.