the window
i believe that dreams are the window to our subconcious. we cant controll what we dream so therefore only the truth is to be told however abstract it may seem. last night i dreamt of a shower. dreaming of a shower stands for the desire to get rid of some feelings. The funny thing is that in my dream the shower would startand then after a few secods it would shut off and i couldnt get it to start again for a while but wevery time i could get it to start it would shut off within seconds. and i can definately see the llink between wanting to get rid of some feelings and the moment i saw what it meant it immediately made sense. and the fact that it wouldnt stay on would indicate to me that even though i really want to get fid of some feelings i cant manage to let go for some reason, no matter how hard i try. and although i know that if the reason i had those feelings was still about me i wouldnt allow my feelings to get the best of me even if it hurt and i think of all the different reasons i shouldnt feel the way i do and why i should just be able to let go but i cant. i wish i knew what to do because this bothers me incessantly but alas i am at a loss. well c'est la vie i guess. that is all for now for i am going to attempt to distract myself for if i cant be rid of them i may be able to be forgetful of them and i suppose that is the second best choice. holla muah much luv one