Writer's Block: Fictional Character
I don't actually have "writer's block" but I kinda want to answer this question.
Answer: Lee Fiora from Curtis Sittenfeld's novel "Prep." Not because I go to prep school (I don't), or because I have lots of sex/give blowjobs in sleeping bags, etc, etc (I don't) but because of the constant feeling of uncertainty and outsider-ness and angsty-teen-ness and the smart-but-not-really-ness. She's this girl who's really smart at her regular school in Indiana but then she gets a scholarship to this prep school in Massachusetts and realizes that she was only the smart kid because she wasn't challenged/in easy classes/whatever. That's absolutely me this year. I signed up for AP World because I was always really good in school but then something's actually hard and I can't handle it (re: nervous breakdown while writing the China template at the beginning of the year). Then, she's on a scholarship because her family is kind of poor, and she goes to school surrounded by all of these rich kids who go there just because they can. Like me at Rock Bridge. I mean, I don't live in poverty or anything, but my mom is a single mother who works as a waitress and I don't have a job and my house is full of frivolous things. It sounds martyrish but I try to balance out all of spending and everything that my mom and Clare do by not buying anything really. I haven't gotten a hair cut in over a year. If I get clothes, my dad buys them or they're on clearance. My phone, computer, etc (most of the expensive things I have) were paid for by my dad and everything.
I don't know. I've read the book quite a few times and I cry everytime, and every time I feel more and more like Lee and it's really depressing, actually. Oh well.
Answer: Lee Fiora from Curtis Sittenfeld's novel "Prep." Not because I go to prep school (I don't), or because I have lots of sex/give blowjobs in sleeping bags, etc, etc (I don't) but because of the constant feeling of uncertainty and outsider-ness and angsty-teen-ness and the smart-but-not-really-ness. She's this girl who's really smart at her regular school in Indiana but then she gets a scholarship to this prep school in Massachusetts and realizes that she was only the smart kid because she wasn't challenged/in easy classes/whatever. That's absolutely me this year. I signed up for AP World because I was always really good in school but then something's actually hard and I can't handle it (re: nervous breakdown while writing the China template at the beginning of the year). Then, she's on a scholarship because her family is kind of poor, and she goes to school surrounded by all of these rich kids who go there just because they can. Like me at Rock Bridge. I mean, I don't live in poverty or anything, but my mom is a single mother who works as a waitress and I don't have a job and my house is full of frivolous things. It sounds martyrish but I try to balance out all of spending and everything that my mom and Clare do by not buying anything really. I haven't gotten a hair cut in over a year. If I get clothes, my dad buys them or they're on clearance. My phone, computer, etc (most of the expensive things I have) were paid for by my dad and everything.
I don't know. I've read the book quite a few times and I cry everytime, and every time I feel more and more like Lee and it's really depressing, actually. Oh well.