Tainted

[city27girl]

I had so much that I was going to update everyone on, nothing big, but a lot of little pleasant things that I wanted to share. But all of that is lost on me now. Now all that I can think about is Sunday...how weird Rob was on the phone...how much fun I thought I was having...how close I felt to my friends...how my bad karma keeps on kicking me in

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[qu2samantha]

You know, I do owe you some thanks. Who you are rubbed off on me a bit while we were friends. You taught me to love my body, and accentuate what I had. You taught me how to let loose (which I took too far at times, I know), and how to have a great time. You showed me how the really simple and small things in life matter so much. You opened my eyes to new things and ideas, and you encouraged me to express myself at every possibile moment. You embraced life wholeheartedly, and there was nothing that I wanted more than to emulate that outlook. Liz, you gave me some of the best memories of my high school years. Thank you for that.

I don't know who you really are now, and my only slight link is in the form of Kate and Rob. But I really hope that who you are now has the same love and passion for everyday moments and life as a whole. I don't know what has become of you, but I hope that it's really great, and you're happy with your life. I can't make up for my stupidity, but I want you to know that I sometimes wonder what my life would be like, had I never run away from you. You were worth keeping, I just did a shitty job of trying to, because I felt so awful for my bad decisions. I'm not the best at making reparations, I know.

Do with this whatever you want to. I'm not sure what I'd do with it, to be honest. But I realized today when I was in the shower that I really do have a lot to thank you for, and I knew I had to do it before I chickened out. I'm sorry for hurting you then, and I truly hope that saying all of this now won't make anything hurt more. I don't know what you're going through, but I hope you're okay.