Start of something new
So, I have been officially graduated for one week now. Since last Sunday, to be exact. I finally have my BA! Now that I'm home and filling out job applications, I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it.
I'm almost finished with unpacking all of my stuff, which is taking a lot longer than I remember from previous years. Then again, I usually just shove all my boxes into the basement and leave them there until it's time to go back. Except, I won't be going back in September. It still feels odd. I think it won't really hit me until September comes, and I'll still be here.
I decided to come home for awhile, for several reasons, primarily because I'm totally broke with about 20k in loans, and home is rent free. Finding a job and a place anywhere else would have required planning and work, which I just couldn't manage during the semester (but killing myself was totally worth it, because I'm getting published! among other things) and honestly I realized I'm a little afraid of moving to a big city by myself. So, I'm back home...and it's pretty much home. Which makes me question my decision to come back here, because I'm quickly being reminded of all the reasons I didn't want to come back here. Except now I'm pretty much stuck...but I think if I can put off that suffocating feeling until at least September, then maybe I can reevaluate things.
No surprise, but finding a job is hell right now. I've put in at least 20 applications at various places, with only one call, which I guess I should be thankful for. Interview tomorrow. I'm only looking at department stores, fast food places, basically dead end jobs, because that's pretty much all that's available here, and I'm worried that's all I'm qualified for. Really, what does a BA in history qualify for, other than grad school? Which will happen in a couple of years, but definitely not now. It's just frustrating, because all of the jobs that I'm actually interested in are located in big metropolitan areas, where I'm not ready to go yet. Even volunteering/internships requires driving at least a half-hour, and without a job that's not going to happen.
So, I guess I should feel more successful or accomplished for graduating, or something, but right now I feel more tired and confused than anything. It's weird, but now I have to learn how not to be in school. I'm trying to write a bit in between applications though.
Next week my mother and I are taking a week-long trip to New Orleans, which should be interesting, at least. Hopefully the weather is decent, as I think we're getting in before hurricane season officially starts. Then again, it is traveling with my mother. Hopefully I'll have fic to post before then...
This entry was originally posted at Dreamwidth.
I'm almost finished with unpacking all of my stuff, which is taking a lot longer than I remember from previous years. Then again, I usually just shove all my boxes into the basement and leave them there until it's time to go back. Except, I won't be going back in September. It still feels odd. I think it won't really hit me until September comes, and I'll still be here.
I decided to come home for awhile, for several reasons, primarily because I'm totally broke with about 20k in loans, and home is rent free. Finding a job and a place anywhere else would have required planning and work, which I just couldn't manage during the semester (but killing myself was totally worth it, because I'm getting published! among other things) and honestly I realized I'm a little afraid of moving to a big city by myself. So, I'm back home...and it's pretty much home. Which makes me question my decision to come back here, because I'm quickly being reminded of all the reasons I didn't want to come back here. Except now I'm pretty much stuck...but I think if I can put off that suffocating feeling until at least September, then maybe I can reevaluate things.
No surprise, but finding a job is hell right now. I've put in at least 20 applications at various places, with only one call, which I guess I should be thankful for. Interview tomorrow. I'm only looking at department stores, fast food places, basically dead end jobs, because that's pretty much all that's available here, and I'm worried that's all I'm qualified for. Really, what does a BA in history qualify for, other than grad school? Which will happen in a couple of years, but definitely not now. It's just frustrating, because all of the jobs that I'm actually interested in are located in big metropolitan areas, where I'm not ready to go yet. Even volunteering/internships requires driving at least a half-hour, and without a job that's not going to happen.
So, I guess I should feel more successful or accomplished for graduating, or something, but right now I feel more tired and confused than anything. It's weird, but now I have to learn how not to be in school. I'm trying to write a bit in between applications though.
Next week my mother and I are taking a week-long trip to New Orleans, which should be interesting, at least. Hopefully the weather is decent, as I think we're getting in before hurricane season officially starts. Then again, it is traveling with my mother. Hopefully I'll have fic to post before then...
This entry was originally posted at Dreamwidth.