FUCKING BOOHOO FEST
okayyyy well i havent updated in a while so lets start with this weekend
Friday I worked
Saturday... ya thats right I worked
Sunday I fucking worked again.. well at least I got to hang out with kels for a while. we went to the brown school where all the Silva boys and Kevin were at, so I got to meet Josh. Hes adorable. Him and Kelsey make me miss having a boy that I can kiss and hug whenever I want. (sad)
Monday - Went to school which was alright. Then I came home and cleaned my room for a while. Then I made the mistake of going through my memory boxes. I have 5 boxes filled with things from places ive been and people ive been with. Just little things like the tag from the first shirt that I picked out for Lloyd which was also the night that I stayed at his house for the night, for the first time.
To clear my head I came online to just talk to people and what a mistake that was too.
My friend started talking to me about something. Something that I regret doing and cant take back. something that bothers me so much that I cry almost every single night since it happened.
I totally lost it. I was bawling my eyes out right infront of my sister and I HAD to leave. I hate crying in front of people.
I was crying my heart out so William came and picked me up. He made me feel a lot better about the whole thing. We went back to his house and talked for a bit while he wrote a paper for school. His sister made me the CUTEST blankie in the whole world. I LOVE it. Shes been working on it forever! Its sooo comfy to snuggle with. THANKS SUSAN! Then when Will was done with his paper we drove around for a while and talked about so much stuff. He deff is the best shoulder to cry on. Then he brought me home cuz he was going to go meet up with his girlfriend.
So after I got home I layed on the couch, snuggling with my new Nun-night (blankie) and just cried.
I tried to stop but I couldnt. My mom came home so I went to my room so she couldnt see me crying and I fell asleep around 4:30 am ish.
I went to school late cuz I woke up to the sound of *The Reason* playing on my radio and had another fucking loser break down. Today would have been one year....
wow this is a fucking boo fest if I ever heard one!
Anyway.. I got to school around 10:30. Just in time for History with Kelsey. I thought that seeing her and just being aruond ppl would make me feel better, but it didnt. I sat in history, the whole block, just in a total daze. I have no idea what we were even talking about or anything.
oh yeah and Lloyds in my class too ...
School ended and my JILLY MARIEEEE picked me up and brought me to work. We went for pizza first though. <3
work was work and it sucked as usual
WE BETTER HAVE AN EFFIN SNOW DAY TOMORROW!
well my friend Mark just called me so im gonna go...
Good Night
Friday I worked
Saturday... ya thats right I worked
Sunday I fucking worked again.. well at least I got to hang out with kels for a while. we went to the brown school where all the Silva boys and Kevin were at, so I got to meet Josh. Hes adorable. Him and Kelsey make me miss having a boy that I can kiss and hug whenever I want. (sad)
Monday - Went to school which was alright. Then I came home and cleaned my room for a while. Then I made the mistake of going through my memory boxes. I have 5 boxes filled with things from places ive been and people ive been with. Just little things like the tag from the first shirt that I picked out for Lloyd which was also the night that I stayed at his house for the night, for the first time.
To clear my head I came online to just talk to people and what a mistake that was too.
My friend started talking to me about something. Something that I regret doing and cant take back. something that bothers me so much that I cry almost every single night since it happened.
I totally lost it. I was bawling my eyes out right infront of my sister and I HAD to leave. I hate crying in front of people.
I was crying my heart out so William came and picked me up. He made me feel a lot better about the whole thing. We went back to his house and talked for a bit while he wrote a paper for school. His sister made me the CUTEST blankie in the whole world. I LOVE it. Shes been working on it forever! Its sooo comfy to snuggle with. THANKS SUSAN! Then when Will was done with his paper we drove around for a while and talked about so much stuff. He deff is the best shoulder to cry on. Then he brought me home cuz he was going to go meet up with his girlfriend.
So after I got home I layed on the couch, snuggling with my new Nun-night (blankie) and just cried.
I tried to stop but I couldnt. My mom came home so I went to my room so she couldnt see me crying and I fell asleep around 4:30 am ish.
I went to school late cuz I woke up to the sound of *The Reason* playing on my radio and had another fucking loser break down. Today would have been one year....
wow this is a fucking boo fest if I ever heard one!
Anyway.. I got to school around 10:30. Just in time for History with Kelsey. I thought that seeing her and just being aruond ppl would make me feel better, but it didnt. I sat in history, the whole block, just in a total daze. I have no idea what we were even talking about or anything.
oh yeah and Lloyds in my class too ...
School ended and my JILLY MARIEEEE picked me up and brought me to work. We went for pizza first though. <3
work was work and it sucked as usual
WE BETTER HAVE AN EFFIN SNOW DAY TOMORROW!
well my friend Mark just called me so im gonna go...
Good Night