be good enough for me
Couldn't sleep, too much to think about.
Trying to think more about what is good, write it down to cement it in my mind.
Last night, got up and recorded a list of things that were on my mind. It was a good list. Parts of it were stated well. There was a flow. It could've been some sort of beatnik poem.
As for the items on the list, they were not about what is good. The poem, if indeed poem it is, would have to be titled something like "I am a horrible person" or "My life sucks because I suck" or "What the god-damned shit-pissing hell?" or maybe just "Balls".
The catch is that at least some of the information in this list could be helpful, at least in a "bringing feelings to harsh light" way. But they were written in an emotional state that probably makes them harsher than necessary. And so I try to figure out whether it's better to go over the list or to get rid of it and attempt to expunge the thoughts from my head.
So I watch an old Sony commercial. And I think about that instead.
Trying to think more about what is good, write it down to cement it in my mind.
Last night, got up and recorded a list of things that were on my mind. It was a good list. Parts of it were stated well. There was a flow. It could've been some sort of beatnik poem.
As for the items on the list, they were not about what is good. The poem, if indeed poem it is, would have to be titled something like "I am a horrible person" or "My life sucks because I suck" or "What the god-damned shit-pissing hell?" or maybe just "Balls".
The catch is that at least some of the information in this list could be helpful, at least in a "bringing feelings to harsh light" way. But they were written in an emotional state that probably makes them harsher than necessary. And so I try to figure out whether it's better to go over the list or to get rid of it and attempt to expunge the thoughts from my head.
So I watch an old Sony commercial. And I think about that instead.