I don't feel like getting over you
I scar easily. For the moment, pretend this has nothing to do with my psyche. This is entirely about my body. I scar easily. Apparently.
See, for the most part, it doesn't take a great deal to break the skin. (This, by the way, is why hemophilia freaks me out so much. Clotting is good.) And I'm not saying that every time I find myself bleeding a little means another scar, or that my body is a network of scars, or anything like that. But very minor injuries leave lasting marks. When there's a still-easily-noticeable, decade-old mark from being scratched with a key, it causes one to wonder. I have this light line on the back of my hand I can only assume came from my cat. My cat, unlike others I can mention, does not attack. She does not leave scratches one would expect to stay. But hey, this is me.
And so it goes that the pretending can stop. Very minor things leave lasting impressions, impressions that, over time, become overlooked and are accepted as natural. Much like a physical scar's origin can be forgotten and the scar seen as a part of the body, like a birthmark, the mental impression is accepted as - a quirk? As just something that's there. That's just something I do. I'm not really sure why.
It's come up recently that I bruise easily as well. This wasn't as obvious to me because it's simple to be cut in some way, but blunt trauma takes doing that I'm good at avoiding. Similar parallels can be drawn to the psyche, but I leave that as an exercise to the reader. When attempting this, note that the bruises appear quickly, but they also go through the healing stages and fade rather quickly as well.
My mind and my body belong together. I don't know what's responsible for this, but I'd like to recognize a job well done.
I'm still a little bitter about that cool soccer scar fading away, though.
See, for the most part, it doesn't take a great deal to break the skin. (This, by the way, is why hemophilia freaks me out so much. Clotting is good.) And I'm not saying that every time I find myself bleeding a little means another scar, or that my body is a network of scars, or anything like that. But very minor injuries leave lasting marks. When there's a still-easily-noticeable, decade-old mark from being scratched with a key, it causes one to wonder. I have this light line on the back of my hand I can only assume came from my cat. My cat, unlike others I can mention, does not attack. She does not leave scratches one would expect to stay. But hey, this is me.
And so it goes that the pretending can stop. Very minor things leave lasting impressions, impressions that, over time, become overlooked and are accepted as natural. Much like a physical scar's origin can be forgotten and the scar seen as a part of the body, like a birthmark, the mental impression is accepted as - a quirk? As just something that's there. That's just something I do. I'm not really sure why.
It's come up recently that I bruise easily as well. This wasn't as obvious to me because it's simple to be cut in some way, but blunt trauma takes doing that I'm good at avoiding. Similar parallels can be drawn to the psyche, but I leave that as an exercise to the reader. When attempting this, note that the bruises appear quickly, but they also go through the healing stages and fade rather quickly as well.
My mind and my body belong together. I don't know what's responsible for this, but I'd like to recognize a job well done.
I'm still a little bitter about that cool soccer scar fading away, though.