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"In my head there's a Greyhound station
Where I send my thoughts to far off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place where they're far more suited than here."
...this is what it's like to walk the streets of atlanta and find your picture plastered on traffic signs.
jennie's famous. like a rockstar.
that day was golden.
my horoscope: TAURUS: "It is by going down into the abyss that you recover the treasures of life," wrote mythologist Joesph Campbell. "Where you stumble, there lies your treasure." Keep those thoughts uppermost in mind, Taurus. You've dared to crawl down into the abyss, and that's admirable. But now comes the most important part: your stumble. Be alert for every detail about it. It's the key to your future treasure.
think what you will...but i take that to heart.
i feel like i'm there. i've crawled down far...my dad's told me that himself. he also said it's up to me to get myself back up.
i have a lot to work towards. and though it comes slowly...i'm working for that light at the end of the tunnel.
one problem: the exact shape of that light is constantly changing.
i'm loving my photography class. i've been learning so much. things i thought i knew and things i forgot.
last night was beautiful. the skies were completely clear, studded with stars, the moon perfectly lit...and the air a fresh hint of spring again. it made me long for someone to share it with. ever since i've been home though, my interest and attraction towards anyone has been non-existant. not even the slightest visual crush on a complete stranger. i think there's something wrong with me.
though it got me reading about my zodiac sign and what i'm attracted to and such interesting things about myself. it pin-pointed a number of things. very fascinating.
if you're thinking i'm a nut...whatever.
i finished the Autobiography of Benjamin Franklin and now am reading Girl with a Pearl Earring. I always loved the Vermeer painting, and then i stumbled across this book, intrigued by seeing the painting on the cover...i'm glad. it's fabulous so far.
london was in town this last week. we were best friends of seven years growing up, then college happened. distanced us quite a bit. i like how we've both grown up...gone our own paths for a couple years...and now...realize how much in common aspects of our lives are at this point. we do well together. always have. it's heart-warming. now i'm just terribly covetous of her six-week tour in europe.
i also envy ry's recent trip to china. he sent me a cuddly panda for my childhood collection. it smells of green tea. i love it. and he bought me authentic chopsticks! i'm going to make an asian dish (ZeDong noodles) especially for them.
john, at work, is leaving for spain next month. dave is leaving to live in hawaii as a beach bum for a few months. laura's going to new zealand in the fall. connie, beth, and erika are applying to go to spain.
and i'm staying...here.
seems i'm just never dealt the cards i want.
and when i get depressed about this...i just go and watch Amelie. ...again.
then i'll get lost in a book where i can be away from my dull life...
and then i'll put in Death Cab and let it serenade me while i paint everything in my head.
while i dream i'm in my own studio...complete with black and white checkered floor...and looking out my window at the city.
a girl can dream.