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I need to make myself clear, because apparently I haven't been clear enough. I will NOT skip out on the my responsibilities just because the situation I'm in isn't a desirable one. Regardless of what some might think about it, none of that matters because I'm not the only one in this boat. If it were me, I know I'd be damn glad if someone who made promises in the beginning were to keep them until they were fulfilled.
And that is what I intend to do until that lease is up. I made a promise and goddamn it I'm going to keep it, even if that means nothing to anyone but me. Despite all the bullshit and newly acquired issues (which will not be addressed), I'm STILL not going to bail out. I'm going to pay for my mistakes and I'm going to pay for them happily because I learned something from them, and to hell with anyone who has tried to convince me that I should do anything but keep up my end.
And to one in particular, I won't give any email addresses because I don't think that sending an email will do anything but more damage. I don't need you to fight for me, if I have something to say I'll say it myself.
I understand that you're trying to help me out, and I more than appreciate it, but there is nothing I can do but keep my word, you HAVE to understand that. Am I still angry and upset with certain recent events? Sure I am, but that doesn't mean I'm going to try to leave all of this on her. In fact, if I could, I would take the whole thing on myself if I could afford to. I just have myself to support, she has her whole family to help out and consider. I already owe her and her family for everything they've done for me (despite one opinion in particular that we're near even, which I don't agree with at all) and this is how I'll start repaying that.
Now that is all that I'm going to say on this matter, my mind WON'T be changed on it.
Good night.
And that is what I intend to do until that lease is up. I made a promise and goddamn it I'm going to keep it, even if that means nothing to anyone but me. Despite all the bullshit and newly acquired issues (which will not be addressed), I'm STILL not going to bail out. I'm going to pay for my mistakes and I'm going to pay for them happily because I learned something from them, and to hell with anyone who has tried to convince me that I should do anything but keep up my end.
And to one in particular, I won't give any email addresses because I don't think that sending an email will do anything but more damage. I don't need you to fight for me, if I have something to say I'll say it myself.
I understand that you're trying to help me out, and I more than appreciate it, but there is nothing I can do but keep my word, you HAVE to understand that. Am I still angry and upset with certain recent events? Sure I am, but that doesn't mean I'm going to try to leave all of this on her. In fact, if I could, I would take the whole thing on myself if I could afford to. I just have myself to support, she has her whole family to help out and consider. I already owe her and her family for everything they've done for me (despite one opinion in particular that we're near even, which I don't agree with at all) and this is how I'll start repaying that.
Now that is all that I'm going to say on this matter, my mind WON'T be changed on it.
Good night.