OTC 30.1: Reluctant (re: Roy and legal guardianship)
MissCiss28: Hey handsome
W1ndrboy003: Hey yourself, beautiful.
MissCiss28: how're you, my love?
W1ndrboy003: Not bad. You?
MissCiss28: I'm okay
W1ndrboy003: Just okay?
MissCiss28: You know, most people take "okay" at face value
W1ndrboy003: Um. Sorry?
MissCiss28: ::laughs:: Don't be.
MissCiss28: is your "not bad" like my "I'm okay" and I should be asking "not bad?"
W1ndrboy003: Not bad translates to "quiet night."
W1ndrboy003: But you're "okay" means something?
MissCiss28: which is indeed a good thing, except sometimes you get restless.
MissCiss28: eh. I don't know if it does. I think it means I'm being stupid.
W1ndrboy003: I do--and you're never stupid. What's up?
MissCiss28: sometimes I am.
W1ndrboy003: Nope.
MissCiss28: :-P you're biased.
W1ndrboy003: Perhaps.
MissCiss28: ::sigh::
MissCiss28: Tim... when Bruce offered to adopt you, why did you say no the first time? I mean--I know, because you told me at the time, but--remind me?
W1ndrboy003: Because partly it was too soon after Dad. And I was mad at him (even though I didn't admit it). And a host of actually logical reasons, including the fact that I didn't think Bruce needed the press of adopting yet another dark-haired teenage boy.
MissCiss28: ::sigh:: Yeah. All of those *are* logical and reasonable. I mean--I'm glad you changed your mind...
MissCiss28: why *did* you change your mind?
W1ndrboy003: Because I wasn't mad anymore--and the timing was better.
MissCiss28: yeah.
W1ndrboy003: Why?
MissCiss28: ...Roy wants to adopt me. I think--well, the word has been thrown around, but the actual paperwork was for guardianship, I guess, but it feels... basically the same
W1ndrboy003: Hm.
W1ndrboy003: How do you feel about it?
MissCiss28: I--don't *know*
MissCiss28: I don't have any of your logical reasonings.
W1ndrboy003: It doesn't have to be logical
MissCiss28: if it's logical it doesn't feel stupid.
W1ndrboy003: It's emotions. Emotions aren't stupid.
MissCiss28: sometimes they are. remember when I was jealous of Stephanie? THAT was stupid.
W1ndrboy003: Steph was being mean, though.
MissCiss28: ::sigh::
W1ndrboy003: Ciss... talk to me?
MissCiss28: I'm sorry. I just--don't know what to think. I mean--I'm *seventeen.* I don't--really get why he wants to go through all this.
W1ndrboy003: I think he just doesn't like the idea that you're alone?
MissCiss28: I know. I just--I don't know. It's not that big a deal?
MissCiss28: as ridiculous as it sounds--I am used to it. and I think he doesn't like Elias. I *know* he doesn't like Mom.
W1ndrboy003: I know you are. But I think he wishes you didn't have to be.
W1ndrboy003: And I don't think it's the school he dislikes as much as it is the situation.
MissCiss28: ::sigh:: I know. (And don't think I don't notice that you aren't arguing the fact that he doesn't like Mom.)
W1ndrboy003: You are too perceptive for your own good, miss.
MissCiss28: I just know you too well.
W1ndrboy003: Heh. True.
MissCiss28: I love you.
W1ndrboy003: I love you too
MissCiss28: :-P I just--I was just getting used to having a *brother*, you know?
W1ndrboy003: I know how you feel.
MissCiss28: I know. I'm sorry.
W1ndrboy003: It's okay
W1ndrboy003: Really
MissCiss28: ...what do *you* think?
W1ndrboy003: What do I think about what specifically?
MissCiss28: Just--Roy. What I should do. I mean... I don't know. I don't know that there's a choice now, since I told him yes, but... I don't want to hurt his feelings, you know?
W1ndrboy003: I know--but you do have a choice. Always.
MissCiss28: I know.
MissCiss28: I just don't know what I want. which sounds *stupid.*
W1ndrboy003: It's okay to not know, too. It's kind of a big decision.
MissCiss28: I know, I just--feel kind of silly
MissCiss28: like--why *wouldn't* I want him to do this, right? I mean, hell. I wouldn't need a social worker anymore.
W1ndrboy003: True.
W1ndrboy003: Permission forms would be less trouble.
MissCiss28: *Ugh.* And going to the *doctor.* >_<
W1ndrboy003: Yes.
MissCiss28: ::sigh:: So why am I not jumping all over this?
W1ndrboy003: Because it's change.
W1ndrboy003: And you're not really used to having so much family.
W1ndrboy003: One sympathizes. ::grin::
MissCiss28: ugh. true. ::laughs::
MissCiss28: Christmas was nice, but--yeah. a lot more than I'm used to. not that that's *bad*, I guess...
W1ndrboy003: No, it's not bad, but it's different, and weird, and probably a bit unsettling.
MissCiss28: Maybe a little. Although, I'm used to a lot of noise and people when I go to Anita's. ...I just usually go back to school after
W1ndrboy003: Which helps with the noise and chaos digestion, huh?
MissCiss28: maybe a little.
MissCiss28: it was nice not having to stay at school alone during vacation. and, you know, I love Lian. but, you know, I'm going back to school Sunday, which is when everyone else is, too--I'm kind of used to having some time by myself before everybody else shows up. and I feel INCREDIBLY ungrateful and self-centered when I say that. ugh.
W1ndrboy003: It's okay--you have a routine--have for about four years now. It's okay to be unsettled when that changes.
MissCiss28: yeah?
W1ndrboy003: Yes, Cissie. Of course it is.
MissCiss28: :-P I'm sorry.
W1ndrboy003: Why are you sorry?
MissCiss28: because I'm--I don't know. being silly.
W1ndrboy003: I don't think you're being silly, Ciss.
MissCiss28: I *feel* silly.
W1ndrboy003: I know, but... It's not really silly to be frustrated when things change your routine. Even if they're good things, and the change is for the better. It's still your routine, and what you're used to.
MissCiss28: yeah... do *you* think it's a good thing?
W1ndrboy003: I always think family's a good thing.
MissCiss28: :-P when you put it like *that*...
W1ndrboy003: You know that has everything to do with my issues, right?
MissCiss28: I know. I'm sorry.
W1ndrboy003: It's really okay.
W1ndrboy003: I just meant I didn't want you picking up my issues and going with it like it was advice.
MissCiss28: I know.
MissCiss28: I love you.
W1ndrboy003: I love you too.
MissCiss28: ugh. I don't want to think about it anymore. what are you up to?
W1ndrboy003: Not, honestly, a whole lot.
W1ndrboy003: Mostly talking to you.
MissCiss28: I miss you.
W1ndrboy003: I miss you, too.
W1ndrboy003: Tons.
MissCiss28: do you have patrol tonight?
W1ndrboy003: Yes, but it's slow. You know who's trying to be everywhere at once these days.
MissCiss28: Really? Ew.
W1ndrboy003: Uh huh.
W1ndrboy003: I think he's trying to make his presence known.
W1ndrboy003: As if anyone would actually forget.
MissCiss28: ::laughs:: Point.
MissCiss28: ...how would you feel about a visitor?
W1ndrboy003: I love visitors.
MissCiss28: New York is a lot closer than Pennsylvania. Speaking of positives. And I'm pretty certain Roy won't mind...
W1ndrboy003: ::laughs:: Probably not.
MissCiss28: so--I could come later tonight, or in the morning...
W1ndrboy003: Completely up to you, Ciss. Though I could probably be convinced to dut my patrol a little short if you wanted to come tonight...
MissCiss28: I am being very selfish. I really need a hug from my Tim.
W1ndrboy003: And I miss you horribly. It seems like we never have time to spend together.
MissCiss28: I know. I miss you too--and it does, doesn't it? At the risk of sounding petulant--it's not fair.
W1ndrboy003: It's really not.
W1ndrboy003: Kon and Bernard whine so much about having to spend time apart...
MissCiss28: I know, and they can see each other practically whenever they want. it seems like Kon's always over there.
W1ndrboy003: Yes.
W1ndrboy003: "Oh, but he's so far away!"
W1ndrboy003: Pft.
MissCiss28: I know!
W1ndrboy003: We're a couple of hours away from each other, and I have to steal time with you because of the night job.
MissCiss28: and other people
W1ndrboy003: Neither Kon nor Bernard have both Batman and school.
MissCiss28: exactly
MissCiss28: ::sigh:: and in the list of cons to the adoption idea is that now I will have to actually, you know, check in with people before I come see you
W1ndrboy003: Not a horrible thing, in the grand scheme.
MissCiss28: :-P no, I suppose not. and that might be evened out by the whole being an hour closer thing.
W1ndrboy003: This is true. And the fact that I'm apparently always welcome over there.
W1ndrboy003: No need to be sneaky.
MissCiss28: not that it stops you
MissCiss28: or that I mind. apparently I find your sneakiness endearing.
W1ndrboy003: :sneaks::
MissCiss28: ::giggles::
MissCiss28: as long as you aren't sneaking from me, that is
W1ndrboy003: No way.
MissCiss28: I do love you. So--I'm coming tonight, yes? ;-)
W1ndrboy003: If you want--you know I'd love to have you.
MissCiss28: I really want to see you. We've gone over the missing you thing, but it bears repeating that I miss you so damn much.
W1ndrboy003: I miss you, too, Ciss. Words fail.
MissCiss28: So tell me when I should leave so I can time my arrival around your patrol.
W1ndrboy003: Why don't I time my patrol around your arrival. If you're heading now, I can start moving back home, and be there and showered before you get here.
MissCiss28: Oh, I like *that* plan.
W1ndrboy003: See? I have good ones, on occasion.
MissCiss28: You have them quite often.
MissCiss28: So, my love. I am going to go now.
MissCiss28: (Would it be wrong to drive from New York to Gotham in my pajamas?)
W1ndrboy003: Not at all.
W1ndrboy003: Which pajamas?
MissCiss28: ::laughs:: The ones you gave me for Christmas. ...Well, the ones I opened in front of Roy. ;-)
W1ndrboy003: ::grin:: Cool.
MissCiss28: ::laughs:: All right. I'm all set--Roy says hi, by the way.
W1ndrboy003: Hi, Roy.
W1ndrboy003: Are you here yet?
W1ndrboy003: ;-)
MissCiss28: ::laughs:: I wish!
MissCiss28: I'm going now. I'll see you in about an hour?
W1ndrboy003: Okay--I'm going to start heading in.
MissCiss28: Yay! I love you. I'll see you soon!
W1ndrboy003: Love you too. Can't wait to see you.
MissCiss28: Me either. Bye, love.
W1ndrboy003: 'Bye.
[OOC: Sadly, no one can see this. ;) It happened sometime between Christmas and New Years, and Cissie would be horrified if Roy knew she was angsting about the guardianship thing.]
W1ndrboy003: Hey yourself, beautiful.
MissCiss28: how're you, my love?
W1ndrboy003: Not bad. You?
MissCiss28: I'm okay
W1ndrboy003: Just okay?
MissCiss28: You know, most people take "okay" at face value
W1ndrboy003: Um. Sorry?
MissCiss28: ::laughs:: Don't be.
MissCiss28: is your "not bad" like my "I'm okay" and I should be asking "not bad?"
W1ndrboy003: Not bad translates to "quiet night."
W1ndrboy003: But you're "okay" means something?
MissCiss28: which is indeed a good thing, except sometimes you get restless.
MissCiss28: eh. I don't know if it does. I think it means I'm being stupid.
W1ndrboy003: I do--and you're never stupid. What's up?
MissCiss28: sometimes I am.
W1ndrboy003: Nope.
MissCiss28: :-P you're biased.
W1ndrboy003: Perhaps.
MissCiss28: ::sigh::
MissCiss28: Tim... when Bruce offered to adopt you, why did you say no the first time? I mean--I know, because you told me at the time, but--remind me?
W1ndrboy003: Because partly it was too soon after Dad. And I was mad at him (even though I didn't admit it). And a host of actually logical reasons, including the fact that I didn't think Bruce needed the press of adopting yet another dark-haired teenage boy.
MissCiss28: ::sigh:: Yeah. All of those *are* logical and reasonable. I mean--I'm glad you changed your mind...
MissCiss28: why *did* you change your mind?
W1ndrboy003: Because I wasn't mad anymore--and the timing was better.
MissCiss28: yeah.
W1ndrboy003: Why?
MissCiss28: ...Roy wants to adopt me. I think--well, the word has been thrown around, but the actual paperwork was for guardianship, I guess, but it feels... basically the same
W1ndrboy003: Hm.
W1ndrboy003: How do you feel about it?
MissCiss28: I--don't *know*
MissCiss28: I don't have any of your logical reasonings.
W1ndrboy003: It doesn't have to be logical
MissCiss28: if it's logical it doesn't feel stupid.
W1ndrboy003: It's emotions. Emotions aren't stupid.
MissCiss28: sometimes they are. remember when I was jealous of Stephanie? THAT was stupid.
W1ndrboy003: Steph was being mean, though.
MissCiss28: ::sigh::
W1ndrboy003: Ciss... talk to me?
MissCiss28: I'm sorry. I just--don't know what to think. I mean--I'm *seventeen.* I don't--really get why he wants to go through all this.
W1ndrboy003: I think he just doesn't like the idea that you're alone?
MissCiss28: I know. I just--I don't know. It's not that big a deal?
MissCiss28: as ridiculous as it sounds--I am used to it. and I think he doesn't like Elias. I *know* he doesn't like Mom.
W1ndrboy003: I know you are. But I think he wishes you didn't have to be.
W1ndrboy003: And I don't think it's the school he dislikes as much as it is the situation.
MissCiss28: ::sigh:: I know. (And don't think I don't notice that you aren't arguing the fact that he doesn't like Mom.)
W1ndrboy003: You are too perceptive for your own good, miss.
MissCiss28: I just know you too well.
W1ndrboy003: Heh. True.
MissCiss28: I love you.
W1ndrboy003: I love you too
MissCiss28: :-P I just--I was just getting used to having a *brother*, you know?
W1ndrboy003: I know how you feel.
MissCiss28: I know. I'm sorry.
W1ndrboy003: It's okay
W1ndrboy003: Really
MissCiss28: ...what do *you* think?
W1ndrboy003: What do I think about what specifically?
MissCiss28: Just--Roy. What I should do. I mean... I don't know. I don't know that there's a choice now, since I told him yes, but... I don't want to hurt his feelings, you know?
W1ndrboy003: I know--but you do have a choice. Always.
MissCiss28: I know.
MissCiss28: I just don't know what I want. which sounds *stupid.*
W1ndrboy003: It's okay to not know, too. It's kind of a big decision.
MissCiss28: I know, I just--feel kind of silly
MissCiss28: like--why *wouldn't* I want him to do this, right? I mean, hell. I wouldn't need a social worker anymore.
W1ndrboy003: True.
W1ndrboy003: Permission forms would be less trouble.
MissCiss28: *Ugh.* And going to the *doctor.* >_<
W1ndrboy003: Yes.
MissCiss28: ::sigh:: So why am I not jumping all over this?
W1ndrboy003: Because it's change.
W1ndrboy003: And you're not really used to having so much family.
W1ndrboy003: One sympathizes. ::grin::
MissCiss28: ugh. true. ::laughs::
MissCiss28: Christmas was nice, but--yeah. a lot more than I'm used to. not that that's *bad*, I guess...
W1ndrboy003: No, it's not bad, but it's different, and weird, and probably a bit unsettling.
MissCiss28: Maybe a little. Although, I'm used to a lot of noise and people when I go to Anita's. ...I just usually go back to school after
W1ndrboy003: Which helps with the noise and chaos digestion, huh?
MissCiss28: maybe a little.
MissCiss28: it was nice not having to stay at school alone during vacation. and, you know, I love Lian. but, you know, I'm going back to school Sunday, which is when everyone else is, too--I'm kind of used to having some time by myself before everybody else shows up. and I feel INCREDIBLY ungrateful and self-centered when I say that. ugh.
W1ndrboy003: It's okay--you have a routine--have for about four years now. It's okay to be unsettled when that changes.
MissCiss28: yeah?
W1ndrboy003: Yes, Cissie. Of course it is.
MissCiss28: :-P I'm sorry.
W1ndrboy003: Why are you sorry?
MissCiss28: because I'm--I don't know. being silly.
W1ndrboy003: I don't think you're being silly, Ciss.
MissCiss28: I *feel* silly.
W1ndrboy003: I know, but... It's not really silly to be frustrated when things change your routine. Even if they're good things, and the change is for the better. It's still your routine, and what you're used to.
MissCiss28: yeah... do *you* think it's a good thing?
W1ndrboy003: I always think family's a good thing.
MissCiss28: :-P when you put it like *that*...
W1ndrboy003: You know that has everything to do with my issues, right?
MissCiss28: I know. I'm sorry.
W1ndrboy003: It's really okay.
W1ndrboy003: I just meant I didn't want you picking up my issues and going with it like it was advice.
MissCiss28: I know.
MissCiss28: I love you.
W1ndrboy003: I love you too.
MissCiss28: ugh. I don't want to think about it anymore. what are you up to?
W1ndrboy003: Not, honestly, a whole lot.
W1ndrboy003: Mostly talking to you.
MissCiss28: I miss you.
W1ndrboy003: I miss you, too.
W1ndrboy003: Tons.
MissCiss28: do you have patrol tonight?
W1ndrboy003: Yes, but it's slow. You know who's trying to be everywhere at once these days.
MissCiss28: Really? Ew.
W1ndrboy003: Uh huh.
W1ndrboy003: I think he's trying to make his presence known.
W1ndrboy003: As if anyone would actually forget.
MissCiss28: ::laughs:: Point.
MissCiss28: ...how would you feel about a visitor?
W1ndrboy003: I love visitors.
MissCiss28: New York is a lot closer than Pennsylvania. Speaking of positives. And I'm pretty certain Roy won't mind...
W1ndrboy003: ::laughs:: Probably not.
MissCiss28: so--I could come later tonight, or in the morning...
W1ndrboy003: Completely up to you, Ciss. Though I could probably be convinced to dut my patrol a little short if you wanted to come tonight...
MissCiss28: I am being very selfish. I really need a hug from my Tim.
W1ndrboy003: And I miss you horribly. It seems like we never have time to spend together.
MissCiss28: I know. I miss you too--and it does, doesn't it? At the risk of sounding petulant--it's not fair.
W1ndrboy003: It's really not.
W1ndrboy003: Kon and Bernard whine so much about having to spend time apart...
MissCiss28: I know, and they can see each other practically whenever they want. it seems like Kon's always over there.
W1ndrboy003: Yes.
W1ndrboy003: "Oh, but he's so far away!"
W1ndrboy003: Pft.
MissCiss28: I know!
W1ndrboy003: We're a couple of hours away from each other, and I have to steal time with you because of the night job.
MissCiss28: and other people
W1ndrboy003: Neither Kon nor Bernard have both Batman and school.
MissCiss28: exactly
MissCiss28: ::sigh:: and in the list of cons to the adoption idea is that now I will have to actually, you know, check in with people before I come see you
W1ndrboy003: Not a horrible thing, in the grand scheme.
MissCiss28: :-P no, I suppose not. and that might be evened out by the whole being an hour closer thing.
W1ndrboy003: This is true. And the fact that I'm apparently always welcome over there.
W1ndrboy003: No need to be sneaky.
MissCiss28: not that it stops you
MissCiss28: or that I mind. apparently I find your sneakiness endearing.
W1ndrboy003: :sneaks::
MissCiss28: ::giggles::
MissCiss28: as long as you aren't sneaking from me, that is
W1ndrboy003: No way.
MissCiss28: I do love you. So--I'm coming tonight, yes? ;-)
W1ndrboy003: If you want--you know I'd love to have you.
MissCiss28: I really want to see you. We've gone over the missing you thing, but it bears repeating that I miss you so damn much.
W1ndrboy003: I miss you, too, Ciss. Words fail.
MissCiss28: So tell me when I should leave so I can time my arrival around your patrol.
W1ndrboy003: Why don't I time my patrol around your arrival. If you're heading now, I can start moving back home, and be there and showered before you get here.
MissCiss28: Oh, I like *that* plan.
W1ndrboy003: See? I have good ones, on occasion.
MissCiss28: You have them quite often.
MissCiss28: So, my love. I am going to go now.
MissCiss28: (Would it be wrong to drive from New York to Gotham in my pajamas?)
W1ndrboy003: Not at all.
W1ndrboy003: Which pajamas?
MissCiss28: ::laughs:: The ones you gave me for Christmas. ...Well, the ones I opened in front of Roy. ;-)
W1ndrboy003: ::grin:: Cool.
MissCiss28: ::laughs:: All right. I'm all set--Roy says hi, by the way.
W1ndrboy003: Hi, Roy.
W1ndrboy003: Are you here yet?
W1ndrboy003: ;-)
MissCiss28: ::laughs:: I wish!
MissCiss28: I'm going now. I'll see you in about an hour?
W1ndrboy003: Okay--I'm going to start heading in.
MissCiss28: Yay! I love you. I'll see you soon!
W1ndrboy003: Love you too. Can't wait to see you.
MissCiss28: Me either. Bye, love.
W1ndrboy003: 'Bye.
[OOC: Sadly, no one can see this. ;) It happened sometime between Christmas and New Years, and Cissie would be horrified if Roy knew she was angsting about the guardianship thing.]