OTC 14.2: Curious
Also for justprompts, based on this image (test tubes).
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Curiosity killed that cat-isn't that what they say?
I was never curious, though. I mean-it didn't occur to me that I should be. Not about my dad. Or-not curious besides the ordinary my-dad-died-before-I-could-get-to-know-him-as-a-person-rather-than-Daddy curious. But then I had to write that autobiography and I caught Mom in her lie about me being premature. I only had Tim look into it because Mom didn't even remember lying.
Stupid blood types. I don't suppose there's any way O and A can make B, after all? No? Yeah, I didn't think so.
I did talk to Mom about it, after Tim told me what he found out. She didn't deny it-she really couldn't, I guess. She said that she never told him, whoever he is. That he was self-centered and arrogant and I was like-gee, thanks, Mom. This is the first impression you want me to have of my biological father?
I don't know if I want to know who he is. I mean-first of all, I had a dad. HAVE. My dad was the man who tucked me in and checked my closets for monsters, and who let me help him make cookies, and who read me Black Beauty and Charlotte's Web. He's the man who gave me band-aids and sang to me when I had nightmares, and the man who packed me fruit instead of fruit-roll-ups for lunch.
And then he died, and Mom went all "you're going to be a hero no matter what we have to do" and I did some really fast growing up. Mom didn't check for monsters.
So-it kind of feels like… now I know that Daddy wasn't my father, and I don't really know what to do with that. Tim says he thinks Dad had to know-Mom implied that, too, since she said she was pregnant when she met him. (Forgive me though, if I'm having a hard time taking anything she says at face value these days.)
I should probably at least find out who he is, I guess. For genetic/health reasons alone. I just-don't know that I want to. And I'm such a broken record about this, but I can't stop thinking about it.
It feels like a betrayal or something. "Gee, Dad, I'm going to go find your replacement?" I just-want to know what he would say.
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Curiosity killed that cat-isn't that what they say?
I was never curious, though. I mean-it didn't occur to me that I should be. Not about my dad. Or-not curious besides the ordinary my-dad-died-before-I-could-get-to-know-him-as-a-person-rather-than-Daddy curious. But then I had to write that autobiography and I caught Mom in her lie about me being premature. I only had Tim look into it because Mom didn't even remember lying.
Stupid blood types. I don't suppose there's any way O and A can make B, after all? No? Yeah, I didn't think so.
I did talk to Mom about it, after Tim told me what he found out. She didn't deny it-she really couldn't, I guess. She said that she never told him, whoever he is. That he was self-centered and arrogant and I was like-gee, thanks, Mom. This is the first impression you want me to have of my biological father?
I don't know if I want to know who he is. I mean-first of all, I had a dad. HAVE. My dad was the man who tucked me in and checked my closets for monsters, and who let me help him make cookies, and who read me Black Beauty and Charlotte's Web. He's the man who gave me band-aids and sang to me when I had nightmares, and the man who packed me fruit instead of fruit-roll-ups for lunch.
And then he died, and Mom went all "you're going to be a hero no matter what we have to do" and I did some really fast growing up. Mom didn't check for monsters.
So-it kind of feels like… now I know that Daddy wasn't my father, and I don't really know what to do with that. Tim says he thinks Dad had to know-Mom implied that, too, since she said she was pregnant when she met him. (Forgive me though, if I'm having a hard time taking anything she says at face value these days.)
I should probably at least find out who he is, I guess. For genetic/health reasons alone. I just-don't know that I want to. And I'm such a broken record about this, but I can't stop thinking about it.
It feels like a betrayal or something. "Gee, Dad, I'm going to go find your replacement?" I just-want to know what he would say.