I never seem to have topics. Life and random things? Crack festival?
So things have been going so well. It's nice that I don't have to angst about many things anymore. My life is nice and I will be home for the summer in two weeks so it's all good. It will be nice being home and hanging out with people and driving where feel like. I'm actually kind of happy minus this little stuffy nose that is here today but that will be gone tomorrow. I feel good about so many things which is just odd for me because I haven't had that as a constant for almost two years.
I am turning 20 soon which is interesting because at this point in my life I feel like I'm turning 17. Not because I have the immaturity of a 17 year old but because of what next year will entail. I am going to ESU for a year to get some gen ed classes out of the way while studying voice and piano and kicking musical butt. Then I will be applying to probably 7-10 schools so this upcoming year will almost be a replay of senior year because I didn't do everything properly that year. I settled for what came my way and limited myself because of many factors but this year I am keeping all my options open and yeah most of these schools are conservatories. WOOT! I have what it takes so I am not worried. Mr. Grice also said that I have the potential to have a long and successful professional career which is a great thing to hear from someone who has been singing professionally for 38 years. It just reaffirms a lot of things.
So I will miss some people at U Arts but I will be visiting them throughout the year so it really isn't a major deal. I came to philly often last year anyway so it won't be much different except that the people I'm hanging out with are people that I actually want to go see. Yeah I said it so get over it.
I might have an accompanist for next year which would be amazing. In addition, I'm beginning to have feelings for someone and it's totally mutual but it's odd because I haven't actually felt this way in a long time. I feel like this time I wouldn't just settle for whatever comes my way and attempt to make it work because the last few relationships left me a bit messed up and jaded but am I healed? Absolutely my friends. Very much so.
There just comes a time when you have to put everything to rest and not allow for so many things to linger because if I didn't put so many of these past things to rest I would be mental right now but wait....I'm insane already. This insanity however is natural and a result of music. LOL
So does coming back to square one seem like a bad thing? The idea of a second chance to do things the right way with my new perspective is wonderful. It is all good.
I am turning 20 soon which is interesting because at this point in my life I feel like I'm turning 17. Not because I have the immaturity of a 17 year old but because of what next year will entail. I am going to ESU for a year to get some gen ed classes out of the way while studying voice and piano and kicking musical butt. Then I will be applying to probably 7-10 schools so this upcoming year will almost be a replay of senior year because I didn't do everything properly that year. I settled for what came my way and limited myself because of many factors but this year I am keeping all my options open and yeah most of these schools are conservatories. WOOT! I have what it takes so I am not worried. Mr. Grice also said that I have the potential to have a long and successful professional career which is a great thing to hear from someone who has been singing professionally for 38 years. It just reaffirms a lot of things.
So I will miss some people at U Arts but I will be visiting them throughout the year so it really isn't a major deal. I came to philly often last year anyway so it won't be much different except that the people I'm hanging out with are people that I actually want to go see. Yeah I said it so get over it.
I might have an accompanist for next year which would be amazing. In addition, I'm beginning to have feelings for someone and it's totally mutual but it's odd because I haven't actually felt this way in a long time. I feel like this time I wouldn't just settle for whatever comes my way and attempt to make it work because the last few relationships left me a bit messed up and jaded but am I healed? Absolutely my friends. Very much so.
There just comes a time when you have to put everything to rest and not allow for so many things to linger because if I didn't put so many of these past things to rest I would be mental right now but wait....I'm insane already. This insanity however is natural and a result of music. LOL
So does coming back to square one seem like a bad thing? The idea of a second chance to do things the right way with my new perspective is wonderful. It is all good.