c'est la vie
life is beyond anything i could ever imagine comprehending. sometimes i feel so caught up in the scheme of the moment that i loose myself, but i am over that. i just want to breath now forever in peace. im tired of disceit and disrespect.
i didnt sleep with someone, so they fucked their roommate in the next room as i gathered myself and belongs. people are flaky. who do i trust but myself, really. i have faith. most times without truly thinking. my heart and mind are on different levels most days. i prefer that over anything. its just crushing at points when i give my whole heart to everyone and everything i encounter. i want the world to be full of love. all is full of love...and selfish deeds and needs. i could never hate anyone. i dont regret. i can only hope to learn from everything and be the best i can at any and every given moment.
ill just keep breathing. life is wonderful. i cant believe i ever wanted to jump. i was just asked tonight if i was going to jump in the river. i was at the park down the street. just drawing and having a mexican beer compliments of a kind soul. some homies asked me and i promptly said 'fuck no' and that was that. i love existence. i am completely infatuated with all that entails, whether it includes me or not. there is so much to take in and learn. i hope to live a long and passionate life, always to the best of my ability.
tomorrow im going to eastern market with my roomie to pick up a couple of things for the sweet dumpling squash soup we are making for the progressive dinner. i am so excited to meet our neighbors! i love this area so much!
this next year is going to be yet another challenge i will gladly arise to. i have so many projects i am looking forward to completing. the light boxes, a cd and maybe some shows, a website, getting together a portfolio for textiles, maybe some modeling, meeting more wonderful souls.
so many delightful things to enjoy in life. i feel no need to get hung up on disappointments. i am as strong as i will myself to be. and im rock solid.
oui. c'est la vie!
i didnt sleep with someone, so they fucked their roommate in the next room as i gathered myself and belongs. people are flaky. who do i trust but myself, really. i have faith. most times without truly thinking. my heart and mind are on different levels most days. i prefer that over anything. its just crushing at points when i give my whole heart to everyone and everything i encounter. i want the world to be full of love. all is full of love...and selfish deeds and needs. i could never hate anyone. i dont regret. i can only hope to learn from everything and be the best i can at any and every given moment.
ill just keep breathing. life is wonderful. i cant believe i ever wanted to jump. i was just asked tonight if i was going to jump in the river. i was at the park down the street. just drawing and having a mexican beer compliments of a kind soul. some homies asked me and i promptly said 'fuck no' and that was that. i love existence. i am completely infatuated with all that entails, whether it includes me or not. there is so much to take in and learn. i hope to live a long and passionate life, always to the best of my ability.
tomorrow im going to eastern market with my roomie to pick up a couple of things for the sweet dumpling squash soup we are making for the progressive dinner. i am so excited to meet our neighbors! i love this area so much!
this next year is going to be yet another challenge i will gladly arise to. i have so many projects i am looking forward to completing. the light boxes, a cd and maybe some shows, a website, getting together a portfolio for textiles, maybe some modeling, meeting more wonderful souls.
so many delightful things to enjoy in life. i feel no need to get hung up on disappointments. i am as strong as i will myself to be. and im rock solid.
oui. c'est la vie!