forcefedseizures
shifting mind frames and entering another dimension. im high. transported. laughing at nothing and everything. they fucked up me alright. im no longer the same person. capable of experiencing every emotion at once. but the shittiest part of the deal is my absentminded memory. i can hardly remember anything. where i put my cds, when doctor appointments are, phone calls im suppose to make, if ive already said something or not, promises ive made, it frustrates me to no end. i feel like a fucking moron. i dont know when ill get my memory back. or when theyre going to find me a place to live. it makes me feel fucking fantastic that my parents are pretty much kicking me out. and until im out they have to hound me every five seconds and treat me like im three years old. hopefully ill get social security so i dont have to live in that crazy home. i dont want to think of myself as disabled, but i want that fucking money. i want it right fucking now.